Faded by time??

I keep asking myself,'why am i so slack in life'?
Who is the full of confidence aaron chan?today
science paper totally flunked le la,i had nightmares
and i cant sleep well yesterday night..u kept on
comforting me that it is just mid year..i wan still be
got time to make changes for prelims..Although i
answered but i dunno can i make it thru..

Can anyone be my fireman that would put out my
fire whether i m in a emergency?..

Can i find back my motivation of life??I promised
to study hard!Thanks YunJoong buddy!

I did everything out of a good will..
i have no intention of anything&my apologies
i cant buck my courage to admit..