HAIS...really feel like crying!!
D&t in a mess now..everything not done!!
is really not i dunwan to do is i really out
of things to do liao..i m just so stresss..i m
sorry,ms leong for disappointing you..i would
try my best..seeing everyone almost done makes
me more stress...i cried out in physic class but i
think no one notice it..i m just so unless la..my
mood now is really bad and sad...i hope someone
can be here to hear me out..but who is willing?
darren?he doesn't seems to care anything..
elvin?he is always not serious de&telling him is
equal telling the whole world...dillon?he dun
seems to bother or care about me anyway..gary?
he probably is the one but i afraid he might say
out..but i quite trust him now..hais..i m left with
no one..the girls seems to have distance with me..
hais..going to school seems to be so meaningless..
if i not same class with suen,munyee,jing and gary
de hua i also dun feel like attend class in this school
anymore..i rather other place to study..ANYWAY
WHO CARES IF I GO?..HAHAH..I M JUST BEING
STUPID...NO ONE!!NO ONE WOULD CARE DE..
hais..and after school elvin say he wanna go popular
and i also wanted to go and purchase something then
in the end i purposely say i wanna go bugis de popular
i just wanan test dillon&elvin whether would they
pei me FOR GOODNESS SAKE ONCE...but in the
end the fail my test towards them..they did drop
at tiong and i went alone..i should not say piasia
cuz is not really ps..anyway i m already numb by
all this things..i have been going out alone all these
days..but wad can i say?i m DISAPPOINTED thats
all..one is someone i dote the most in my life and
other is my twinny?...but which one came back in
and pei me?anyway i m nobody to them..probably..i
i really speechless now..where is my friends?did they
changed or did i changed?maybe is me ba...i m really
sad,disappointed&speechless...where is my old
friends?JUST WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY?
i decided to be alone and separated from them
from today..i shall talk less to them since no even
one is willing to pei me...no i should not say pei me
is i actually peiing elvin...anyway probably you
dun aware of wad you doing..but i can say you
hurt me from the top till the end and from the top
to the bottom..you can say i m attitude or anything
but this is my feelings and i have freedom of speechless..
probably the last fight/quarrel we had had separate
us even further from each other...I REALLY WANNA
CRY OUT LOUD...I M REALLY SAD AND DISAPPOINTED..
is bugis difficult to go home?NO...i just wanna wait and
see wad would i have for birthday from the guys?probably
nothing..anyway from the start i dun expect anything
but for two of them i did alot for their birthday..would it
be like wad suen said last year..'buy so exp the thing
for wad later he buy 3dollar the things for you or never
buy for you'..are you guys going to pei?i dun think so..
but i think is fine la..i m just used to it liao..anyway even
MY MUM AND DAD ALSO DUN REMEMBER ME BIRTHDAY
EVEN IF THEY REMEMBER THEY ALSO ONLY GIVE ME
MONEY TO BUY THE THINGS I LIKE BUT THIS NOT WAD
I WAN...I M REALLY ALONE..I WAN PPL TO PEI ME..IS IT
SO DIFFICULT FOR JUST A DAY?SINCE I WAS PRIMARY 3
ONLY GRANDMUM REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY..BUT NOW?
SHE HAS LEFT ME LE..I REALLY MISS HER...I REALLY HOPE
SHE IS HERE..SHE LOVE AND DOTED ME ALOT..I REALLY LOVE
AND MISS HER ALOT!!!MUM AND DAD DUN LOVE ME AT ALL..
THEY ARE ALWAYS BUSY AND WE IS THERE FOR ME?NO ONE?
THATS WHY I TREASURE MY FRIENDS BUT ALL THIS IS
WAD I GET?GOD YOU ARE REALLY UNFAIR TO ME!!YOU UNDERSTAND..
WHY PPL CHILD BIRTHDYA SOMEONE IS THERE TO BE WITH
THEM AND I DUN GET IT?WHY PPL GOT FRIENDS TO CELEBARTE FOR
THEM AND I DUN HAVE?WHYWHYWHWYW>???TELL ME..AND YOU
TAKE AWAY ALL MY BELOVED PERSON IN MY LIFE..FUICK YOU MAN
FUCK YOU HARD...WHY ARE YOU SO UNFAIR TO ME...WHYWHWYWUJS..
AM I NOT A HUMAN?EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE HAVE NOT SEEMS TO
TURN OUT WELL...GOD IS IT I HAVE DONE SOMETHING SRONG?WHY
MUST YOU PUNISH ME IN THIS WAY...WAD HAVE I DONE?
aaron is dead...i wan my friends and love ones