~ Life ~

The past weeks I have been thinking why god didn;t let me choose who I want my parents to be ,where is should be born, rich or poor i want and my looks and features and the list will go on and on .. I felt that life is unfair cause i didnt have a chance to choose and i was put in it .. and everytime i see a very rich person i envy them ,i envy their kids i envy their everything ! and when I am suffering in life i start to grumble and cry seek for a shoulder to comfort me seeking for someone, who understands me, seeking for someone who can help me .. but i forgetten one thing at least i am still alive and the most thankful thing because my life is in my hands !

God did not gave us to right to let me choose my parents non let me choose where I wanna be born but one thing he gave me to choose is how i want to led my life ! I this world only result can better you to a higher peak in life and that is the only thing ppl guage you thus everytime during an exam i wanna do the best as i know it is part of my future that i wan lead ! I want to be a successful person,I want my mom to lead a comfort and carefree live, I want to be rich,I want to enjoy my job,I want my current cliques to be still my oldies friends and I want everything that I did not get in my life except for love,laughter and peace which i cant get even if i am someone in life ..

I found my answer to my own question . I found the reason why I am living for. I found a new me in me. I also found a friends who care for me and willing to standby me.

and if one day you find yourself kelian/poor thing, let me tell you ,you are nothing compare to kids in africa , they do not have to eat normal food like u or should i say do they get to eat ? ,at least you are breathing and slping in your bed comfortablely but what about them?if you think you are most unluncky person on earth then what are the kids in africa ?

you what i detest the most now ? O level students wasting their time , until this year I realise how important is to do well in your o levels, if you are given a chance to study you better study hard because it decides your future, your dreams but if you choose otherwise then don't regret in the future and start blaming your mum not giving you tution and everyone else except YOURSELF ..

I am a straightforward person and truth tends to be painful so pls pardon me.

~the end~

Publish Post

Dunno why i have so much feelings today .. maybe these days i have been do my 'face the wall self -reflections' .. and those people who are disabled but they have a strong mind to able to lead a normal life as they want to be ..

dunno why i realise i rise my 'white flag' .
i cant do it anymore. too much of agony . too painful.
i am out of breath. i am leaving.& i know i 'll regret cus i
already am.