MEL CAMP !

Okay i felt that i should blog about the MEL camp.

I meet Ye xuan at vivo for lunch at ard 11 am .. we had LJS
before we depart .. then we went to meet the group at the boarding
area and there were tons of people await to board the superstar virgo !
i felt kinda regret when i look at my luggage ,i bought like 8 shirts for
4D3N trip .. haha ! We had workshop at ard 1530h and we witnessed
the ship set sail at the front part of the vessel .. it was so cool and the whole
ship was trembling ...

I cannot rmb much about the details of the trip but wad i rmb is only the
FOOD ! i ate and ate the whole day until i am sooooo full and bloated ..
we had buffet ,fine dining and chinese food for meals and the portion is
unlimited man ! felt like a super class person .. until now i still cant
get use to not eating the amount i ate at cruise ! at crusie i can eat dinner
for twice and then supper again man .. but in the end i measured my weight
yesterday it was still 50kg ! ..

What i enjoyed most is when we were at phuket, the point where the islands
were .. it was super nice and windy and the scenery was perfect !

really let my hair down at this camp .. i did spa , eat , slp and glaze at stars
in the night ! it was truly fun and enjoyable !

for pictures refer to my facebook but i will post some that i like most !

Hammmie i love you !

ok no matter how sad i am now i still got to write up this post
for my passed away hamster !

You may ask me why you bought hamsters ? 1.5 years back
my life was quite miserable and i do not have much friends as
i was still in conflict with dillon and guys so on my 17th birthday
i decided to buy a pet that can pei me,play with me and listen to
me so i chosen hamster as i have asthma background and my
dad did not like furry pets .. When i bought her she was only
around 1 to 2 weeks old and you can imagine how small she was
that time compare to now .. she indeed pei me did many things
like playing with me, running away from home and being a big
greedy pig ! and she went thru many things with me and heard
many of my sorrows .. but now she is gone and i kinda predicted
it cause the average lifespan of hamsters are 2 years .. so i kinda
tearing and emo now.. dunno how to take my CA2 test tmr ..

All i hope is that she die in peace and may she reincarnate into
a human with good life .. cus i feel sorry for her as since poly
life started i have not been taking good care of her due to the
tons of homework i have .. i kinda blame myself for her death
now .. looking at her empty cage just make my tears kept rolling
down as i suddenly went into my past memories ..

Goodbye and Thank you for being my pet and being
in my life when i need someone to cheer me up cus
looking at you just make me very happy everyday !

not selected ..

The results for the Japan trip is out !
and i am not selected but only place in the reserved list ..
felt happy and sad though , sad ? because i was hoping
i can visit japan since i was young and i am someone who
hope to visit as many countries as possible and see how
people in other parts of the work live .. happy ? that means
i can save up to like $1600 for my taiwan trip on nov with
my best friends ! and i am going to eat until i burst in taiwan !

Life is not so bad afterall , take away something from you but
gave you something back in return !

As for studies , currently i am choinging for my upcoming
ICA2 exam on friday ..
For ICA1 i personally felt that i did quite well but not the best
i think ..

Princple of Navigation - 78/100 (B+, 3.5)
Maths - 72/100 (B-,3)
Ship Knowledge - 92/100 (A, 4)
Shipping practice - 83/100 (A, 4)
Watching keeping and instrument - Pending

Current GPA - 3.68 /4

It is not very high though but to me it is done quite well !
I will put in more efforts in the tests that are coming up and
make sure i score better ! There is nothing to compare or
who to compare with all you need to do is ask yourself ,'
have you done your best ?' and your greatest oppenent
is yourslef !

~ Life ~

The past weeks I have been thinking why god didn;t let me choose who I want my parents to be ,where is should be born, rich or poor i want and my looks and features and the list will go on and on .. I felt that life is unfair cause i didnt have a chance to choose and i was put in it .. and everytime i see a very rich person i envy them ,i envy their kids i envy their everything ! and when I am suffering in life i start to grumble and cry seek for a shoulder to comfort me seeking for someone, who understands me, seeking for someone who can help me .. but i forgetten one thing at least i am still alive and the most thankful thing because my life is in my hands !

God did not gave us to right to let me choose my parents non let me choose where I wanna be born but one thing he gave me to choose is how i want to led my life ! I this world only result can better you to a higher peak in life and that is the only thing ppl guage you thus everytime during an exam i wanna do the best as i know it is part of my future that i wan lead ! I want to be a successful person,I want my mom to lead a comfort and carefree live, I want to be rich,I want to enjoy my job,I want my current cliques to be still my oldies friends and I want everything that I did not get in my life except for love,laughter and peace which i cant get even if i am someone in life ..

I found my answer to my own question . I found the reason why I am living for. I found a new me in me. I also found a friends who care for me and willing to standby me.

and if one day you find yourself kelian/poor thing, let me tell you ,you are nothing compare to kids in africa , they do not have to eat normal food like u or should i say do they get to eat ? ,at least you are breathing and slping in your bed comfortablely but what about them?if you think you are most unluncky person on earth then what are the kids in africa ?

you what i detest the most now ? O level students wasting their time , until this year I realise how important is to do well in your o levels, if you are given a chance to study you better study hard because it decides your future, your dreams but if you choose otherwise then don't regret in the future and start blaming your mum not giving you tution and everyone else except YOURSELF ..

I am a straightforward person and truth tends to be painful so pls pardon me.

~the end~

Publish Post

Dunno why i have so much feelings today .. maybe these days i have been do my 'face the wall self -reflections' .. and those people who are disabled but they have a strong mind to able to lead a normal life as they want to be ..

dunno why i realise i rise my 'white flag' .
i cant do it anymore. too much of agony . too painful.
i am out of breath. i am leaving.& i know i 'll regret cus i
already am.