OMGOMG!!! I can use internet like everyday NOW cus my ship's internet is UP! HAHA ... So guys stay tuned to my blog for my weekly or daily updates of my shit life onboard!
Lon: hey bro, I saw your blog today man, was damn destructive to me can! I cried, in my heart I have never blamed you for not being there for whenever i needed cus i know we all got to grow up and we have to learn to live when either one of us is not there. The past we had was beautiful but the future ahead of us when will be even better, you got to believe in me, you got to believe in yourself! though i may not be able to be there physically for you now but nevertheless you will always have my spirit and soul with you! You know something, whenever I am sad onboard I will always think of the past we had, the days where we chiong maple to dawn and go mac at harbourfront, the times where we go school today in yr mom's with you bad face in the morning, the day where i fall onto you on 855 when gg to sch and u slam the girl and then u got so mad at me, the day where u bought me fishball kwayteow and a coke at blk 112 coffeeshop(dunno u still rmb, cus i do!), the days we go work together at carl's jr and manymany more, these are memories i will never forget and i am very happy whenever i think back on it cus those life are the best part of my life! I hope you too will feel happy when u reflect back! Rmb no matter which part of the world i am at, your position in my heart will never change, I swear, no matter how much u change I will still try my best to keep up with u! And you dun have to compensate anything to me, you didnt did me wrong, in fact i was thankful we quarrelled cus things are clearer between us, no misunderstandings and we grew up from that! I am also not as good as u mention in yr blog, i am in fact being hated by my captain and some other people i know because maybe of the way i speak, i feel upset, i feel like giving up but i will never cus i know i can make it. you dun have to offer me anything, just be with me when i am back and i hope we can spend more time tgt! I miss you alot too, about a week ago, i got a little drunk then when i go back to my cabin i cried very badly, i took out the photos we once took and cried like mad until i fall aslp, i really miss all of u alot alot that sometimes i think i cannot make it anymore, this is my dunno how many times i had cried because i miss u all! I am really sorry that i canoot be with u as much as i can before due to my carrer but i will do whatever i can, you know i will! Please takecare and I will be back in no time, my dearest brother! I miss u alot !
