Oh man i think it is quite true to like 80 % ? What you guys think ?

This is based on my name and birthday and they generate a personality thingy out !

aaron chan fu hao 19/04/1992

Here it begins ;

• You are Green Raccoon, who is straightforward person. ~agree, I dun give anyone face!~
  
• You don't try to make yourself look great. ~i try to a certain extend~
  
• You are very much a gentleman, and the way you talk is very gentle and can have a conversation with anyone. ~mmm not very true but i can have a conversation with anyone.~
• People may think you as a shy person, because of your attitude of first listen to others before making your own comment. ~ Yes ! ~
  
• But this means that you have a strong will power. ~ YEAH i got plenty!~
  
• You can show persistent perseverance, and believes everything lies in effort. ~ Very True~
  
• Once you start something, you have the will power to complete it. ~Yup thats me !~
  
• You put priority in trust, and therefore are extremely consistent. ~Ever since poly start that this part of me start to develop ~
  
• You can not say "no" to favors, and is a person of strong volunteering spirit. ~yeah,it is hard to say no to ppl you know !~
  
• You have a strong sense of justice and because of this, you sometimes point out things that others do not want to be commented on. ~oh yeah i do this and i hope that person can change for the better and not backstab that person from behing~
  
• Your weakness is you love to argue, and lack flexibility. ~YEAH ! stubborn ~
  
• You tend to be extremely cautious, and because of this, you can miss opportunities. ~yeah i missed alot of opportunities in life~
  
• If you acquire skills in anything you are interested in, and act more confidently, you would be able to call in good fortune. ~yeah just like history and social studies!~
  
• You are not interested in money, so even if you save up, you tend to lavish it all. ~i am and yes i tend to lavish it all !~
  
• You won't need to worry about basic necessities. ~not really true! for now yes i am worried~
  
• If you want to be mentally mature, then don't do things in a rush. ~at time i does thing in a rush manner ~
  
• Your great personality will come out in later years. ~hope so ~
  
• It may be good for you to lead a conservative life as a normal office worker. ~aghhh i hate office work 9-5 ,boring, i wan to be my CAPTAIN ~

Credits to SUEN ^.^ for the above test !

Hardwork paid off !

First day of sch ! quite relunctant to wake up actually but
something motivated ??

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it is that we can get back our test paper to catch a glimpse of it.
and yeah for one of my module, Ship Knowledge, I scored 92/100 .
I can say I am quite satisfied with 92 but I can score 98 de but
as usual I had one careless mistake if not I will have scored the
highest mark I had ever scored other than History and Social
Studies in secondary time ! Nevertheless I am going to work
hard and practice more so that the same mistake of careless
shall not happen again and that I can break my own highest
score point ! GOGO AARONCHAN !!!!

i start to feel tired ,i dunno why .

Wadever that cannot kill me, makes me a stronger person !

quite a fun day ! ystd, we slack at darren place and as usual
mahjong & dota-ing ! we then went to great world for dinner,
Korean Food, though it is located at food junction but the taste
of the korean food is not bad in face the lady boss is a Korean
herself !

We bought toonnnnsss of tibits and alchol at cold storage before
heading to gary's house to ton for the night ! I bought Peach
Barcadi .. the taste is quite bland cus the content of alchol in
it is 4.8% only ..

on the way we started talking about our ghostly encounters and
dy and darren start to get so scare to go gary's place ...

in the end we reach gary place at ard 9 plus and we took turns to
wash up ourselves before we head into his room to ton !

and so ...

at 12am we took out the alchol and start chilling out .. after drinking,
gary face turned REDDDDD and darren was like dying , he has headache &
so fast heartbeat ! wooohh scary !

and for today ...

we slack at his place for the whole day until ard 5pm where darren,dy and
me head to chinatown for dinner and gary went out with his family for
dinner .. as usual we had Koi cafe and Chicken rice !..hehe then we pei
dy walk to her bus stop before we head home ..

~the end~

Quoted from Horoscope prediction for Aries.( I am not a horoscope fanatic but today i suddenly got the urge to go see the prediction)

For 20/06/2010:

"In fact, things are likely to be in a state of upheaval there, but you can expect that things will turn out well no matter what the beginning stages might look like."

my respond ..
It is in fact quite true ! I believe that everything has a beginning and has an ending ..
The world is round and the fate spins around, you may be very rich one day but that
does not meant that you are going to be rich forever .. Only the Kind soul has kind
rebates and evil soul will have their rightful retributation !

Once a upon time I have everything but it does mean
anything .. In life when you gain something you will lose
something because you cannot have everything in the world !

In life when you have something that people don;t
have you bound to lose something that you have.

Chinese believed that 'one's life in this life is determine
by what you had done in your previous life' .

I guess if this is true then I must be a fortunate and evil
person who have harm countless people in my previous
life.

If one day god will to grant me one wish on anything,
i wish that I have not come to this world, I choose to be
a spirit a ghost or wadever but not a human that has
emotional feelings and pain.

I am a person who rather run away from the truth then
facing it all alone. I know this make me a coward but not
i dunwan to face it strongly but i dunno how to .

Blogging & writing my journal is the only place where i
can be truthful to myself.

CAMP !!

oh finally back from my course camp.. had lots of fun and
new expereiences this 2 days ! ..

1st
Meet YeXuan at Vivo then we bus-ed tgt go to Poly Marina
but in the end it rain soooo heavily and we took a cab into
campsite .. as it was raining we had to cancel many activities
thus in the end we played soccer and captain's ball in the field
& so we all turned fucking muddy &dirty !! woo shiok ! i got
free ' mud spa' !

After that we had JETTY JUMP ~HIGHLIGHT~ !! omg ..
when it was my turn i was quite scare .. i stood up above like
4m high and the wind was blowing and my mind started to
whirl whether to jump anot .. in the end i jump without much
more hesitation ! .. 'ahhhh ' powww... drank a mouth full of
sea water ..ekkkk !

soon after the jump we rush to bath and rush for the Grand
Dinner Recepition at SP .. All dressed in uniform and a
chartered bus came to pick us up .. wohoo.. the venue of the
dinner was Grand ! simply like wedding dinner .. i was put in
the ushering role with ZiJun,Rabi,Bryan,Kenny .. woo we
done lots of things to entertain ourselves ! haha =x

2nd
Couldn't slp the whole night .. woke up at 7am to prepare to leave
for a deserted island ,Pulau Hantu ! 6 person per speed boat took
us to that island .. wohoo it was damn damn cool as it was my
first time on speed boat .. super rocky and wet .. and guess wad?
on the main channel of the sea , i saw the vessel, Xin Xia Men ,
it was a transhipment vessel which one of my ex company frequent
vessel .. i suddenly felt so much ! saw lots of things and vessel out
at the sea as well ! eye opener !

After we reach the island we roam ard the island on the low tide beach
which we saw crabs and many many more things ! .. and we walked the
whole island .. and down with lunch and water activities ! wohoo love it!

then ard 1600h we took the SP Yatch, SP Dover back to camp site !
oh btw our campsite is by the sea & beside a jetty for yatch to park ..
super cool ! my first time on the yatch ! haha !

and

NOW .. i just reached home and finished my hearty dinner ! and and and
I AM GOING TO BED ! sooooo tired !!! and and and tmr got CIP .. SHIT!!

bye ppl !

Awww finally holidays is here !
Slept the whole entire even though I have planned something
to do beforehand .. Nevertheless I shall do it tomorrow !

Have plenty of things to complete before school re-open !

1) CRS preparation execrise for CA2 .
2) Capt. Yan Project on Maritime Security.
3) PON revision for CA2 after the HOLs.
4) Camp to attend. ( 16/06 - 17/06)
5) CIP to be complete.
6) Ferry Emergency Recuse Execrise to attend.

And up with my lastest addiction of song is ,


小宇 - 終於說出口

I enjoyed the way he project his voice and I feel that his lyric
is very simple yet meaningful & truthful .. Heard this song yesterday
at darren's place from a tv programme named XING GUANG CHUAN QI .

Be strong ! Be happy !

aimless life !

Went to Paya Lebar in the morning for my Oshima & Hiroshima, Japan
trip interview .. waiting for like 50 over mins !! .. hopefully i can get
to go because i is going to be a fablous experience for me and i strongly
believe it will aid me when i am studying my rules of the road and
equipments and stuffs !

After that i walking aimlessly around until i see a bus stop i like and start
to see which bus goes to a swimming pool where i can swim .. and i sat in
the bus for the whole hour ..

I went to look for food and guess what i found ? BK ! cheap and big in
portion .. $4.95 includes Burger,Fries,Drink and a Taro pie .. I know
i look cheapo now but bo bian i am in a crisis now .. cannot afford to
have fablous which i used to have .. and cannot spend money like i
how did before .. cannot buy snacks that i once love to eat .. and i
have to bring water and biscuits in my bag, always because i must
be careful where i spend my money .. this is a good experience for
me .. it is the way how you interpet it , yes i may feel sad and cheap
but later i feel that it is not a bad thing after all , i mean i am a future
to be ship 'captain' , there will be more situations where i am going
to face so for now take it as a priceless lesson !

I know saying all these seems to be cheating myself .. but what else
can i do other then to cheat myself and the people around me ?
should i put a worried face,sad face,unhappy face and affect everyone's
happy mood ? NO i am not going to do that , it is so selfish ! I know
people around me are concern about me but this is a process where
i can only help myself .. suen and dengyi , i am sorry i know lately i
have not projecting my true self but showing another aaron , the
reason why i did this was that you people are the ones i cared most
thus i dun want to affect anybody's mood and cause everyone to
worried and it is not i dun wan to meet you guys lately it is because
i cant , i am sorry people .. dun worry about me , i will be fine ..

the only thing that can make me forget everything temporary is
going for aikido training and swimming..

nobody's life is a smooth sailing vessel at some point or other
you will meet with a situation .. you may have all the glory now
but one day you will also lose all of those you gained .. once upon
a time i used to had everything but it does mean anything..

3 MORE to go !!

Saw this really interesting phrase today ,
" Some people dream about success but how many
truly work towards it ? " and i start to feel abit embarrassing
because in the past i will only say but no actions but now
i feel that i start to grow up and face the fact that ( NO EFFORT
PUT IN = NO RESULTS ) & ( EFFORT PUT IN X TIME = RESULTS)..
and in the recent exams then i really feel it .. I have put in
alot of effort into this CA but i feel tat it is not enough because the
grading system in my school is too hard ..

I can hardly imagine if i obtain a just pass for all my subjects
and i think my GPA will be less then 2 liao and my scholarship
will start to ask me pay BACK the MONEY they spent on me !

Look at the formule below and try to tabulate your own goal ,

GPA = (module credit units X module grade point)
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(module credit units)



This is my credit unit and it can be obtain from mysas>acadamic>progress report


This is the grading point,
http://www.sp.edu.sg/wps/portal/vp-spws/!ut/p/c0/04_SB8K8xLLM9MSSzPy8xBz9CP0os_hQD1NXIzdTEwN3swADA09_C29Tx1AzQ29zM_2CbEdFAFe4Y9o!/

and my target or the target my lecture has set for all those on
scholarship are GPA 3.5 which is like I M P O S S I B L E for me ..
it is like i can only obtain either B+ or A for all and nothing else..
How to get !!! I dun wan to lose my scholarship !!!

A Twist In My Story , How much longer ?

i am seriously down these days .. i broke into tears infront of
my classmates yesterday due some of the problems in my family..
I can say I am badly affected by it .. I will say it is going to be quite
a huge one! i really dunno whether how am i going to make it thru
this time and exams is next week but i just cannot concentrate on
the stuffs i am doing ..

I know every family faced family problems but there are family
without any problems .. i seen many of my friends living with
perfect but why me now ?

all i can say is that if love does not exist anymore i rather they
separate and i dun wan to be the reason why .. i dun wan to live
in this kind of enviroment ANYMORE ! I WAN LEAVE FOR THE
SEA ..

i am thankful to my classmates who concerned about me .. thanks
alot , i will be fine ..

& now ,
i can go out anymore .. 1) I am facing very bad financial crisis
2) I need to do well for my exams
3) I am no longer in mood to do anything . . .
I just need someone that I can pour all my heartfelts out ..
Who will be the one ?? the pain & sorrow is like

會呼吸的痛