It has been 4 days since u had left me and i would nver forget u..
i found a pic we took at OBS one year back and my tears just kept
rolling and rolling..Seriously i miss u alot..i m sorry i was too busy and
i didn;t treated u well and i was too petty to be angry that small matter
that time..but i know is too late i guess we can nver see each other again
in our life..i really cant believe those words came true and i nver tot
i would be tat sad now..Destiny has brought us together but fate has
separated us..i would save lots of money and see u again..I PROMISE!
How i hope u are beside me now and i wun be so lost and helpless..when
u are here u always give me advise wad to do and now?

And i would nver forget our last telephone call before u left..that last moment:(
I really dunwan to be alone..I have threw a bottle into the sea wit a note of
wad i wanna say to you if we had the fate then hope u would see that drifting
bottle one day on the beach..Contact me soon!

These are the fews pics i really like alot and there is more
that i shall upload soon!

I m crying non stop since the moment i reach home..
i really cannt tahan anymore!wujing today dinner would be our
last right?i would always miss u cuz u are my bestest friend i ever had
wit u ard my days are full of laughter..although i expected u would go
but not so soon and worst is u keep me in dark..Wujing i would nver forget
the days we had spend at OBS and our outings wit suen and munyee..U
might have left me miles away but u would always be living in my heart..
i m speechless now..totally..Jing takecare while u are aboard and contact
me when u are free!at least email!CRAPPER I WOULD MISS U!

Okay got severals things to blog as i haven been blogging for ages!

Firstly i m so happy to know that i m the first one to broke the record of
earning the most salary since Guthrie House Cold storage was open..Guess how
much i earned in total this month?It was 3 as much as i earned in carl's Jr..haha..
but i gonna save them up:)

Secondly i m leaving Guthrie house on sunday meaning it is going to be my last day:(
Sad to leave as everyone there treated me well and all look upon me..I cant believe i
make it thru the 10 weeks there..I still remember when i first reach i was under Pei
huan and i was so stupid..keep making mistakes but in the end i became the section
leader of all the part timers and i was quite honor to take that place as my mentors
are under me..and between this 10 weeks we had sack alot of part timers and also
the one i like most but pin tong and i had made a promise that we would contact
each other no matter wad!so touch to hear that:(..Seriously i really love this job alot!
i would nver forget this memories i spent wit them

And another thing tat i was proud to take this job was that i got to deliver a hamper to
one of our minister mansion..i nver thought that i would be selected..i felt so honor to
deliver on behalf of all my managers and cold storage..on the way i saw this really really
huge mansion or should i say PALACE?i can say it was the most luxurious Palace i
ever seen in SG..And he park his 10 super super exp Ferrari outside his house and
there was a huge fountain wit a beautiful angel on it and the main door of his house is
2 storey tall? and the interior desgin is like OH MY GOSH!..SUPER SUPER SUPER
BEAUTIFUL!..

Thirdly is CHRISTMAS IS HERE..sorry guys i dun have the time today to meet up wit
u guys for dinner but we still can meet tmr for dinner!and of PRESENTS would be given
too but dun expect too much on the presents and i m saving up:)..I hope that Wujing
can join us too!gonna sms her later:D...MERRY X'MAS GUYS:D

Come ON la dun talk like a kid lah..I was intended to hack care but now..
Firstly i slip off my mind that i need to hand up my timesheet on that night just in case u dunno wad a timesheet is it is something that u nid to hand up to ur agency to get ur pay if u are late means no more transtion and u got wait for 15 more days..and by the time i left my store and
submit all the documents it was already 8plus and if i tell gary that day that i m going to be late for 2hours would u feel more fuck up then i say we do it on thurs?And i inform u all beforehand loh not that i last min then say,dun believe go see gary's sms la

Secondly DUN Talk so BIG!the money are earn BY ME,WIT MY BLOOD and
SWEAT..I didn;t steal or rob the money i EARN THEM..the money u lend
gary are money from ur PARENTS and not earn from urself and i dun work
in a good enviroment i had to CARRY stocks ard the supermarket and STACK
THEM and thats is something u totally cant do it!DUN BELIEVE U COME ONE
DAY i ask my boss let u work i tell u the first hour u feel like QUITTING already!

And i dunnO what and how she told u her story and dun jump into conclusion
before u hear the whole story!her's is one sided story..u can choose to believe
because she is ur DAJIE and if u totally believe means u are bias not to me but
to the fact..

When she ring me on 5th OCT 2008 at ard 10plus i was at mel's house and she
told me that she need one hundred dollars to get her bf a PS3 and she dun have
enough money and i didn;t even think and i answered 'okay i can lend u as i got
some money wit me' and she promise that she would return me asap after she got
her pay..we work tgt for the same job agency therefore i know when is the pay day
so i sms her on her pay day and she told me she is out of job and she is working
for ah yeo and return me late and she promise to return me on the 15 of nov
and i understand so i said okay..but in the end i didn;t receive her msg that she
cant pay me back so i jiu suan le nvm as i have some money to pay my bill and hopefully
i got some money for my daily expenses..but who knows my parents went to thailand
for holidays for 3 days and suspend all my acc wit cash and on gave me 30 bucks for
me 3 meals a day and do u know i need least 12 bucks per day as my side the food
ain;t cheap!but in the end i drop the 20 dollars and i only left wit 10 bucks so i bought
tons of cheap maggi noodles home to eat and i sms dajie pls pls pls just return some
money for me to ease thru the tough time like 20 to 30 bucks can le or just enough
for to eat..but GUESS WAD she NVER REPLY..i was fucking angry as i lend her the
money because she is my dajie and i trust her very much but in the end the dajie
i used to know treat me like tat..just left me to die?CAN U IMAGINE U ARE EATING
MAGGI NOODLE WHICH TASTE LIKE SHIT FOR 3 FUCKING MEALS AND
WHEN I M AT WORK I GOT TO STARVE UNTIL I ALMOST FAINTED..OI MY
JOB IS NOT LIKE U SITTING AT HOME!I NEED TO CARRY STOCKS AND I GOT
TO MAINTAIN MY STAFFS!THE STOCK IS NOT LIKE UR BAG WEIGHT THEY
ARE 20 TO 40 KG THINGS!.AND I DUN THINK I DESERVE TO EAT MAGGI NOODLE
AND GO THRU THIS KIND OF SUFFERING WHEN I JUST WANTED TO HELP DAJIE RIGHT?I M ALSO A HUMAN LEI I ALSO NID TO EAT AND SPEND BUT WHAT SHE
DONE TO ME IS TOTALLI IRRESPONSIBLE!AND CAN IIMAGINE UR BOSS AND UR COLLEAGUES ASK U WHY ANI;T U EATING UR MEALS AIN;T U HUNGRY AND I GOT TO REPLY TO THEM THAT I M NOT HUNGRY WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO FAINT?AND CAN U IMAGINE PPL EATING AND U ALSO ARE FUCKING CHEEBYE HUNGRY AND U ARE SEEING THEM EAT AND U GOT NOT A SINGLE CENT TO EAT HOW DOES IT FEEL?U TELL ME LAH HAVE U BEEN SO KELIAN BEFORE LAH..NOT THAT I M HEARTLESS TO DO ALL THIS IS JUST TAT I HAVE TOLERATE AND TOLERATE TO MY MAX!AND I THINK I ALSO DERSREVE AN EXPLANTION WHY?

She later wanted to borrow another 100 bucks from me but i really only got 150 dollar
left and i said i can lend u 50 bucks only and this time she promise to return ALL on the
late nov but in the end she nver and this time because of this i got to borrow money from
my parents and beg them to help me pay my bills first..

COME ON LAH I DUN DESREVED ALL THIS LAH WHEN I JUST WANTED TO HEL.P..
when elvin and melvin told me that dajie woud not pay me back but i dun believe them
as i got the trust in my dajie but in the end i got really really fucking angry when i think
back that i had to suffer so much and she suddenly changed so much..dun say i nver
give her enough time as the timing was promise by her not ME..and the worst part is
she dun have the responsible to at least inform me she just ingore my msgs and calls..

SHE MIGHT BE UR DAJIE AND U ARE SIDING HER..SHE IS A HUMAN SO AM I
ALTHOUGH I M MIGHT BE SOMEONE U HATE ALOT BUT IS THIS FAIR TO ME?
DUN ACCUSE ME!i decided to take action is all because she went MIA and those money
ARE NOT MONEY FROM MY PARENTS BUT THEY ARE EARN BY MY BOTH HANDS!.
The money u lend gary are ur parents hard earned money but u dunno what they have
went to thru just to earn that money..

I know u very well that u would still think i m too much but i dun care the fact is i TOTALLY
dun deserve this kind of suffering when i just wanted to help her..is this wad i get in return when i want to help?Think about it if u was really in my shoes.u mind think she is ur dajie but if u
are at ur wits end wad would u do?lend from friends who dun even have enough for themself?

And i dun mean to put ur areoplane on that day.I apolosied to u for that day.I m sorry.

& Thridly since u all said mel no right to scold ur grandma n i know he was totally wrong but wad has given u the right to scold OUR friend a BITCH?cant he get angry?if u have not start the post it would it had happen?i know u would shoot me,orh ur ownself admit it i also nver put the name but it is so obvious la..There would not be a smoke if there is no fire?

And if is convenience pls post on ur blog what and how has dajie told u just to match the storyline..and u still think is totally my fault we can tell the whole story to our teachers or an outsider which totally had no bias and judge the fairness lah..

I m prepared for the worst and it HAPPEN!.. i went to Singapore General Hospital
to see a doc regarding the cut on my hand today..First i went for Reregistration
for 15 mins then wait see doc for 1 hour then take xray 1 hour then see the xray and
my hand and collect medicine and payment i waited another 1hour 20mins-.-..spent
the whole morning at the Hospital..There was some little little pieces of glasses in my
palm and my tendons of my palm at broken and the broken glass had scratch my bone
therefore i felt numbness and pain and no energy on my right palm..but it is fine as the
tendons would recover ard 2 to 3 week and the piece of glasses would be repel out by
my body..so no nid to operate to remove..i was so afraid that i must operate..i tell u i
would cry out immediately!..

Then went to meet mel at his house and he treat me drink a bowl of delicious Tonic soup!
and we head off to Lim Chu Kang to see my guppy!..It was quite a dissppointing trip as
it has nothing much and the price has so much differences and we went pass tis chicken
farm..arhggg i can tell u it was the worst thing i ever smell in whole life..it was totally
SMELLY and there are chicken feather floating in the air..EEKKK!!..

Went to C328 and see but nver see anything that catches my eyes only one thing and that
is CRAYFISH!!..oh man i wanna keep them but it is so exp and the stock they have a
lousy de!PUI!..i shall hunt ard for better de..Mel bought another 'dragon'..Meet et and
qiqi and eat at this Streets Cafe..the Service is sucky compare to the Ehub de!..i insist on
see their manager and i vent all my anger on her and she treat us for our drinks-.-..is
not i cheap or wad but their service and timing of serving items sucks lah!and i did not
really vent all my anger on her lah is like 10%nia-.-...Et was rather happy as he save his
drink $$$..haha..Home after dinner as i have something to attend at home..

OFF day!wohooo today is my last off day in Guthurie House le..
so my plan for today is to go to Polyclinic to see doc because i believe
i po san feng if u are smart u know..having fever now and i think my
hand inside still got some remaining small pieces of glass so i think need
a small operation to remove them..hais..SCARE!

Then visit Uncle Johnson at Lee&Lee lawfirm about some matter and i going
to make a police report and start the proceedings..This is my Final Deadline
for u and It is 7DAYS from this post onwards and i following the law of
singapore of giving legal deadline if 7days i didn't see it then i would send
u a Letter OF DEMAND from my lawyer and if u still refuse then
we see each other in Law of Court bah..Dun blame me for being ruthless because
i have given u sufficient deadline and the deadline was also not given by me but
YOU promise me de!I can make it more big and happening if u force me more!

Then after the lawfirm visit then i shall meet mel to see my fish:D..and catch a hearty
dinner tgt wit qiqi and et bah..hope so:D

OMG the BROKEN GLASS PRICK THRU MY HAND!
My hand hurts like shit now!stupid me lah..it was the 1st
i ever got cut so badly and bled so much,it was like the tap water
it just kept flowing..Actually at that time that feeling was just
like how my heart felt this few days..My hand is numb now cuz
it cut until my bone there-.-...

Almost got knock by car again yesterday..Suay lah!I rather be
dead now..my mind is fill wit many many things that i wanna do
and complete!

天灰
演唱：S.H.E

如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁?

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁?

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭!
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S.H.E - 安静了 作词:Selina(任家萱) 作曲:周杰伦 编曲:吕绍淳 专辑:我的电台 FM S.H.E ........ music...... 只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里 梦想中 属於我们的婚礼 却成了 单人结婚进行曲 在这场爱情角力的拔河里 爱我还是爱你 你选择了自己 wo~ 撒娇的 可爱的 迷人的 爱哭的 照片里 曾经的 都是你喜欢的 如今我还在原地 你却走回你的记忆 你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没 你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落 分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过 我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我? 你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽 分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑 爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛 沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你 只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里 梦想中 属於我们的婚礼 安静了 在我枕边的梦里 我知道相爱原本就不容易 爱不是一场雨 努力就有结局 wo~ 连假的泪还温热 却没有人握我的手 你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没 你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落 分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过 我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我 你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽 分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑 爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛 沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你

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Rihanna,Take a Bow

Ohh, how about a round of applause?,
Yeah, standin' ovation,
Ooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah.

You look so dumb right now,
Standin' outside my house,
Tryin' to apologize,
You’re so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out.

Don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not,
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtain’s finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it’s over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh ohh.

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin’ 'bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,
This just looks like the re-run,
Please, what else is on.

And don’t tell me you’re sorry 'cause you’re not (mmm),
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtain’s finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it’s over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh.

And the award for the best liar goes to you (goes to you),
For makin' me believe that you could be paithful to me,
Let's hear your speech out,
How about a round of applause,
A standin' ovation.

But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin',
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtain’s finally closin',
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin',
But it’s over now (but it's over now),
Go on and take a bow.

But it's over now.
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Woke up really early this morning cuz i cant seems to fall aslp..
Was thinking and cooking lunch for mum to let her bring to dad later..
I think this few songs represent my feelings now and there is a few more but
i got no time to post le cuz going to cut hair soon and going to have a good day wit
my buddies..

It has BROKEN and at that point i sense that the end has come and
it is really here i can feel it strongly..do u?Bad OMEN!..hais i have learn to take
things easily..

This year is really not a year for me,i m also suay for the whole damn year but
my working there de auntie say bad things would always follow u de but good
things would!After bad things good things sure would come along de..yes i must
be more possible!

OFF DAY for tmr!WOhoo!!meeting mel and et to cut hair then go here and there
the whole day liao..haha!love it!next wednesday is my last off day for my rest of my
working life at Gurthrie House..Although my Boss have a sucks attidue and temper but
i love my job as a senior of the part timers..this working experince is better than the
one in Carl's Jr..i really experince wad is when u staff do something wrong is equals
to me who did wrong cuz i m the senior or supervisor?and i have the power to talk
to them when they have problems and of cuz get rid of the ones that are incapable!..
Almost 2 mths had pass..time really files..i had the feeling of just like i have just started
working..seriously i would nver forget Pin Tong and clement and Johnathan for my life!

Oh ya i almost got knock by car twice this week le!And oh yes i m damn damn damn suay
cuz all the auntie and boss say my fringe has cover my whole forehead and it has block
a impt light or luck that has to go thru my forehead..but lucky i nver kana knock arh:P
but when i saw that car coming i have the time to react and dodge but somehow my mind
told me 'what for u dodge lets go ba i have nth left already'..and i gong gong de stood there
until the car was at my face..Life is pretty meaningless for me now seriously i m willing to
leave this world anytime cuz i have really seen wad are all kinds of humans like on this
planet!

OFF today!YEAH!lucky when i wake up the temp had gone down so
went to mel house for lunch and we went out to see fish and visit farms
& shops..Oh man mel's mum cooking is damn good la,she cook seafood
linguine pasta for lunch and i LOVE linguine,fettuccine and Angel's hair
pasta the most out of all the pastas!mmm..great lunch for me:)thanks mel:)

Head off to CCK as we are going to QianHu then to Guppy Galaxy..Reached
QianHu and i feel that their guppy stocks and some other topical fishes stocks
are low today..nth much impress me..So we walk to the main road to take a bus and
we walk up the stupid hill to Guppy Galaxy..Oh man i can say Guppy Galaxy sells
the best and rarest guppy i ever seen so far..& of cuz the price is also jaw dropping as
it cost min. $10 for the lousy pair and as high as $80 per PAIR!..oh man mel saw
the guppy he likes most and for me too,actually wanted to buy but it cost $30per
pair and i felt that i should not spent this money at this moment so i skip it..

Went to clementi to buy sometings and catch dinner at Botak Jonas:D..mm i love their
fish and chips!..And home as something had happen at home..

I kept recalling something..somehow i have dream of all this happening during a dream
long ago which somehow i rmb it and i rmb the ending..i was not very shock when daddy
called me because REALLY somehow i knew it would happen..Have u always been on
my side and telling me wad would happen next?

Working has nver been fun for me before pin tong and clement
came..today was a fun day!now pin tong is directly wit us as a team liao we had
lorts of jokes and silly talks wit clement and we all was discuss how can i help
them quit earlier-.-mmm..not much of the ways but i still got some lah!
Talk and jokes ends at 5pm because they went home le and i felt that i was
sick after that..heat came out of my body and i was giddy i knew i had a fever
so i tell boss and he was so nice to let me off tmr plus knock off early:D...Thanks
boss!

Yesterday i had a weird dream i dream of this woman who came to me and ask me
about my life so far and i told her everything and i was pretty sad and i realise my
pillow was wet when i woke up cuz i was crying in the dream..I rmb her last words
was'if u think that u have not done wrong and those who had been wrong would
get their retribution one day,let the hate go and dun get stuck and dun dwell over
things that are unhappy'..I kept thinking of her words the whole day but somehow
dunnO who is she but thanks alot for ur advised..

Auntie wendy who is my current colleague told me her way of keep her beauty is tat
she dun rmb or dwell wit unhappy things..she always tell me'what is gone is gone
dun bother thinking of it anymore'..i agreed wit her so whenever i got scolding of
think of unhappy past i would tell myself why think of it is gone..hahaXD..must learn
to not dwell wit things!

Tmr is my off day again:D so would be going to mel house for lunch since he invited me
and then we would head off to searching and visiting fish farms:D..