Follow me through the journey of my life ...

My vessl's internet is UP!!!

2011-07-26T17:38:00.003+08:00

OMGOMG!!! I can use internet like everyday NOW cus my ship's internet is UP! HAHA ... So guys stay tuned to my blog for my weekly or daily updates of my shit life onboard!

Lon: hey bro, I saw your blog today man, was damn destructive to me can! I cried, in my heart I have never blamed you for not being there for whenever i needed cus i know we all got to grow up and we have to learn to live when either one of us is not there. The past we had was beautiful but the future ahead of us when will be even better, you got to believe in me, you got to believe in yourself! though i may not be able to be there physically for you now but nevertheless you will always have my spirit and soul with you! You know something, whenever I am sad onboard I will always think of the past we had, the days where we chiong maple to dawn and go mac at harbourfront, the times where we go school today in yr mom's with you bad face in the morning, the day where i fall onto you on 855 when gg to sch and u slam the girl and then u got so mad at me, the day where u bought me fishball kwayteow and a coke at blk 112 coffeeshop(dunno u still rmb, cus i do!), the days we go work together at carl's jr and manymany more, these are memories i will never forget and i am very happy whenever i think back on it cus those life are the best part of my life! I hope you too will feel happy when u reflect back! Rmb no matter which part of the world i am at, your position in my heart will never change, I swear, no matter how much u change I will still try my best to keep up with u! And you dun have to compensate anything to me, you didnt did me wrong, in fact i was thankful we quarrelled cus things are clearer between us, no misunderstandings and we grew up from that! I am also not as good as u mention in yr blog, i am in fact being hated by my captain and some other people i know because maybe of the way i speak, i feel upset, i feel like giving up but i will never cus i know i can make it. you dun have to offer me anything, just be with me when i am back and i hope we can spend more time tgt! I miss you alot too, about a week ago, i got a little drunk then when i go back to my cabin i cried very badly, i took out the photos we once took and cried like mad until i fall aslp, i really miss all of u alot alot that sometimes i think i cannot make it anymore, this is my dunno how many times i had cried because i miss u all! I am really sorry that i canoot be with u as much as i can before due to my carrer but i will do whatever i can, you know i will! Please takecare and I will be back in no time, my dearest brother! I miss u alot !

10 more days before depature

2011-03-29T23:19:00.004+08:00

I told myself that I shall keep a diary of these last 10days in Singapore as someone who I am now.

& after 6months or 1 year later, I shall look at myself and review myself again.

10 more days ...

Can I say that I am feeling excited/anticipating but also feeling scare and sad now ?

This feelings is generated by the video I just watched, please do watch and continue

with my post ...

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150151253331084&comments

Synopsis of the video: This is video features about a little kitten that was abandoned at her 2nd week after she came into this world. She was dumped in a trash bin and a girl heard it's cries and adopted it. Soon they became very close as close as blood related siblings however as time goes on this girl had to leave the cat due to her studies she has to leave home and she seldom comes home and eventually this cat grew into a very violent cat and eventually she was caged up because she starts to harm everyone at it. Then a pet mediator came and she said that it thought that the girl doesn't wants it anymore and it felt like she was once again been abandon and the kind of fear and loneliness came haunting it.

Thoughts after watching the video: Probably I am just thinking too much but I feel that it will some how happen but in a small degree I hope so. My life with my family,my cliques and my someone "special" will somewhat be like the cat eventually,

I am very close to my mom and she needs me a lot and most important of all I am her only child, someone who she can only trust and depend on now. But I am so cruel, I had to leave her alone for 1 year, leaving her alone to led her life alone. Maybe it is only 1 year now but after I come out to the society to work I will have to leave her side even more. I know eventually she will become "immune" to the fact and face it but she will be like how the cat felt, scare,loneliness and even worried.

& to my cliques, although we had reconciled after 2 years of "war" and "battling" which I thought was a total miracle. There are pros and cons to it, but I am rather look at the better side,I felt the bond and thoughts between us and we grew closer and more tolerable to each other craps. And in the past or now, I have been constantly being intruding in their life. We meet up almost every week with each other and to some extent almost everyday. We eat together, we watch movies together, we joke together, we organised birthdays together, we sing to our lungs limit together & we cried together. However, my "together" with them will soon lessen into "they". I am not saying that I have no confidence in them or what so ever but it is a natural feeling when someone is not by your side anymore, you tend to care less or thinks less of that person and eventually that person will be out of your life. Even the cat felt that way too. So it is totally understandable. Thats why people will say "treasure what you have now so that you wouldn't regret later" but to me I definitely will treasure whatever I have now but I will still feel regret and utterly sad that I can no longer spend lots of time with them, to understand them, to be with them through happiness or sadness. And soon this will happen, "AARON" ==DISTANCE== "Cliques". Tears well up my eyes now, but eventually I have to face it. & we will be like the cat and girl situation, and soon all or some of you will be like the cat and be really fed up with me. Sorry cliques, that I put things in such a way, but I can help with my feelings, I rather be true and honest with all of you because every single one of you means a lot to me .But no matter what I will hope all of you can be part of my future and nothing between us will amend and we still can talk,eat,joke and play like now !

& to my someone "special" although the period we knew each other and be together is no long but the bond I believe in is very strong. I treasure you a lot, more than I can even imagine. You let know that I can be so committed to someone and do so much changes to suits you and for the first time in my life I am so sure that someone is the "one" that I have been searching for and you will be in my life till we are separated by death. Everywhere I go, everynight I sleep, every breathe I take, I will think of our future and how I want our future to be. But I will eventually I will tear when I start to think that I will eventually have to leave to for a long period of time due to the nature of my work. Although many said it will then be a test of resilience of our love but to me we had already made it through. We will also eventually be like the cat and the girl situation, but will you end up being fed up of this kind of life, I really don't and no one knows the future. But no matter what will end up between us in the future, I will tell myself at least I had the awesome memories that we once shared and memories of our special occurrence. I have confidence in you but I have lack of confidence in myself. But no matter what happen, I really love you a lot and I hope you can be part of my future life.

Once again I will say, this is process that you all will not understand unless you are in my shoes. I not going aboard, I am going to a place where I cannot communicate with all of you that often. Humans without communication time together will tends to have problems.

2011-01-20T12:03:00.001+08:00

Here I am - Leona Lewis

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

My words to myself ...

I shall change for the better

2011-01-13T11:24:00.003+08:00

It is an unusual way we meet and become together.
It is a random love but the love both share are not any random love.
I am childish, I am inmature, I am always thinking too much but
you are always there to reassure me things will be fine. & all I ever
need and want is all your love. Life ahead maybe hard and tough but
I believe we will make it there !

&
I will slowly change myself, kicking away all the bad habits I have
and I swear I will become a better lover. Although I am not perfect
but I will always try to be a perfect guy for you in every way I could
possibly do it because I had love you too much.

<3

Are you sure ?

2011-01-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

That is what I asked myself 1days ago.
But after today, I am going to ask " Yes,I am sure and I have never been so sure in life before."

Then there was another question threw at me, " You really think long distance relationship can work?"
If it is me 2 days ago or if it is another person I will probably answered " I also dunno lei" but now
"I will answer with all my confidence, yes and we will try our very best, a clap takes 2 hands to clap and if the 2 hands did it then after the 3years that we maybe apart nothing much can stand in our way already." Distance or being separated by distance is not a bad thing, it actually made me treasure the time we have together more.

and I am serious that in my 18 years of life, I have never treasure time like how I am doing it now!

a day to rest

2011-01-06T16:16:00.003+08:00

It is true about the saying that sad people for generally more weak and have lower in immue system. I have be very depressed these days and I am finally sick now. Down with fever,runny nose,cough and body ache. I guess it is a good time for me to rest my body and self .

MC for 2 days ...

My love for you is deep and meaningless

2011-01-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Chorus (Repeat)

~ Probably this lyric really express my feelings ~
Like what the lyric had express , "You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why? & You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad"
Previously maybe I do not know why but now I know the reason. & yes it is hurtful and extremely K.O for me. But my crying will come to a stop soon and I will start to pick up myself again. If you really care for me, don't ask me what happen because you are simply reminding me of my past again.

2011-01-01T18:33:00.002+08:00

2010 Reflections

2010 has been a very happy and devasting year for me. From lossing I gain back and thats friendship I am refering to. I reconciled with my old friends (Darren,Dillon,Gary,Suen,Munyee) whom I have quarrelled with when I was in Sec 4. Reconcile with them has never been thought of because our last quarrel was tough and fierce one! Everyone thought it was the end of our friendship but somehow things didn't turned out what it was predicted. Being back with them had brought me many joys and laughther in my life again. Throughout this year they had been with me,being there for me and we were just like before. I also believed that quarrels had brought our distance closer. Though Darren always say that " we don't understand each other that much" but my answer now is 'Who really understand themselves that much ?' even I don't understand myself at times how can I understand people who are not even me ? Misundserstanding in friendship does always happen here and there, it is how we handle it that makes the difference and at least after every misunderstandings we will forgive and forget. Our friendship is not as strong as what it may seems but I am sure everyone in the clique will strive their best to maintain this friendship.

In terms of relationship, I have gain and I have loss. We started dating in around march and we stead in around May and finally our relationship is put to a test which we both cannot make it through in December. Throughout this 9months, I can say I really did love you alot but in the end I ended this relationship. Why? It is not because I have stop loving you already but I don't have confidence in our relationship. There is these phrase I had before " Loving someone having that someone". If you learn how to love you must also learn how to un-love. As you know I will be leaving like in 4months time and I will be gone for like at least 6months. I don't want myself to suffer in feeling of missing you and not been there with you when you need me. Thus ending it early will stop me from having all this feelings and it will be better off for me. I know I am selfish but who is not ? Who doesn't wants the best for themselves ? I am afraid, I don't how life will be outside there. Fearing is enough already, I don't want to have missing feelings to add on to my agony. I can only say I am sorry. Though this relationship has ended but I just hope once in a while you will think of me. For now, I am upset , very upset. I have been crying whenever I think of the past and what I have done. But "a moment of pain is better than prolong pain!". & deep in my heart I know I still do love you. Everything has an ending and this is our ending.

~The end~

Suen's Birthday !

2011-01-01T03:09:00.010+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday to SUEN !
Finally you are 18 years old le ...
So how did we celebration suen birthday ???
>< >< ><

She booked a hotel in Sentosa at Siloso Beach there. All the cliques members and Melvin and Qiqi was invited. It is the first time at that hotel for the most of us. It is really a greenery hotel, everywhere is trees and flower !

After we settle down abit, some of us went to swim while some were playing the Monopoly Deal cards. I went to swim and I swear it is the coldest pool I have ever swam in my life !!! It is frezeeing cold ... Anyway after a while it felt better,guess my body was adpating to it ! Suen,Lon and I swam only so we went around and play and we even played with the slides and the pool .. woohoo ! It was so fun =DD

After swim, we went for dinner as everyone was getting abit hungry from the 'high-ness' ... So we dapao KFC back to the hotel to dine as the restaurant was packed ! Before going back to the hotel we went to the ResortWorld and do some phototaking as some of us had never been there ! SUAKU ... ~iam one of them~

Next comes the CAKE CUTTING TIME ! yeah ! We sang and took candid photos with the Birthday girl . After we ate the cake, it was about time for munyee to return home so we walked her to the train station and we went to WaveHouse for some chilling =D .. & it is drinking time again ! So while drinking we played Monopoly deal again .. Looks like it has slowly becoming our favourite game! As usual Darren face was burning red and mine was red .. I was abit drunk I guess .. haha =X

After drinking we went back to the hotel and slack and HBO was playing the movie Quarantine and we started watching it. Darren and Xiaowei was freak out by the show. But i guess it was a nice movie ! So after the movie we started to feel tired and we went to sleep liao !

& Thats not the end ! After we check out at 12pm some of us went back home to sleep for a few hours and washing up as we stayed nearby sentosa and meet again for ROUND 2 celebrations for SUEN ! We meet for dinner at Chinatown and after dinner some of us went home and Lon,Dengyi and suen and I went to Vivo to SING K !!! We sang from 9pm to 12am and IT IS TIME TO COUNTDOWN FOR 2011 ! But in the end the countdown at Vivocity is dull and boring -.- ! After the fireworks we walked to darren's place there to have supper before Suen and I head home !

~post to be continued !~

Shopping day !

2010-12-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

Raining cats and dogs, its the usual weather in the month of december in singapore. We don't have snow but flooded drains and roads !

Went shopping with my cliques (Darren&Elvin) today at orchard. I was late as usual and Darren is getting use to it, i guess. Sorry darren =( you know i do =DDDD !! haha .. Bought a new shirt for myself at Pull and Bear and elvin bought tons of stuffs ! RICHIE BOY !

Darren told me to take the above picture ! It is a model from Topshop! LOOK AT HER TEETH! so funny =X

Dillon's 18th "Bird" Day celebrations

2010-12-28T19:43:00.003+08:00

Lon's chalet cum "bird" day party turned out to be a fun and a very successful one!
The first day we gathered at Ren's place before heading out as most of the things were placed at his house for convenice sake. We had like tons of stuffs to bring along and it feels like as if singapore is going into have a war =.= ..
So after we reached the chalet, we started to prepare and decorate the place and taking photos =DD and so we will let the photos do the story telling ...

Then slowly lon's friends came slowly and we started to BBQ and so on !

Then comes the cake cutting cermony ! Hope Lon like the cake that we had bought for him.

~Ruiyang and Angela are my new friends =DD ~

For more pictures you can visit my facebook , http://www.facebook.com/fadedloves?v=wall&story_fbid=126263644090041

Day 2

We slept in the morning and woke up in the afternoon and we planned to have STEAMBOAT for dinner =D.. i simply love having steamboat with my cliques ! it is so heartwarming and delicious !!

And that very evening I got myself ..70% drunk .. & during the period i was sober, happy memories came back to me ..

After this chalet, I felt that I start to understand my cliques abit more. It is the first time that I see everyon cried together as a clique and being happy as one ! Orgainsing a chalet is not an easy task if you as everyone, we need to have everyone cooperations and lots of efforts to complete it and each thime a chalet ends it feels very happy cus you know you did something that help to bond the clique together. I really hope that dillon and the rest of the clique enjoyed this chalet because frankly speaking I don't know how many more chalets I can be spending with my clique.

I know it very well one day I will be drifted away from my clique due to the nature of my work thus given any opportunity I swear I will make myself and my friends happy cus at least if that day will to really come I know I still have tons of happy memories we once spent together.

Suen be strong, you know we will always be here for you whenever you need us.
If you are feeling unhappy at any time of the day just pop me a call, I am more then
willing to share your burden with you if are okay because that is what clique is for !
We will be right here !

Regina's 18th birthday

2010-12-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

First and foremost, Happy Birthday Regina ! =D

Celebrations ?? haha ! First stop we went to The Cathay and catch the movie named , Gulliver's Travels in 3D ! The 3D effects sucks to the core but the storyline and humour that it brought to us rocks to the max ! haha

After the movie we went to Sakura to have buffet dinner ! It has been sometime since I last had buffet ! I guess the last one was with my cliques at Science Centre. Nevertheless, I had again today ! Intially it was totally fully booked and we were quite dissapointed but lucky in the end the manager got us a seat =D

For god knows when till 31Dec 2010 sakura is featuring Peranakan style. And they also featuring durian theme food ! The above is GREENBEAN SOUP WITH DURIAN PASTE and it is like werid to the max. ewwwww .. But there are other durains stuffs from fried to bake de, like durian crepe,durain tempura,durian springroll,durian pau and many many more ! I ate the durians until I am so sick of it !

Camwhoring =D ! It was agreat dinner and a great catch up. Sometimes it just felt like we just ended secondary school but the reality is we are going to be a year 2 poly student soon ! Time really flies.

Another great news is the my 1st credit card under my name is HERE ! It is the maybank Vibescard that can offer a creditlimit up to $500SGD ! But everything comes with a price ah ! I must have better control over my money if not =.=" ... But the card looks really cool and it has many many offers but I wanted citibank more but they rejected me once and I am so gonna apply again like elvintan !
"NEVER GIVE UP,JUST SEND NIA ! ^.^" - ELVINTANCHINKIONG

PROJECT DAY =O

2010-12-21T21:07:00.007+08:00

TODAY!

Went to swim to with Lon,Ren and gary at safra though I never swim due to my injuries on my left arm and left hip ! sian, so in the end I went there to suntan lo although today weather is quite cloudy. You know weather are weird stuffs, when you want it to be sunny it become cloudy and when you want it to be cloudy is it hot like BBQ !

So after the swim, we went to Vivo for lunch .. Had Fried prawn noodle and oyster egg (O jian)! Have be craving it for like days and I finally get to eat it ! wahaha! though it is not very healthy because it is full of OILLLLLL!! But oily stuffs are DELICIOUS ! dun you agree ??

Then we went to GIANT to buy the chalet food ! I know it is abit kiasu but mostly are frozen food that we bought.. cus I dun wan last min chiong here and there, must as well buy and get ready them first ! so in the end , my whole freezer if filled to the MAXXX! Mom was shocked just now when she opened it, she thought I bought for the family consumption =.="

After Dillon help me carry all the things to my house, we went to chinatown to buy the other plates and stuffs and had chicken rice and home =DD

我们曾走的好辛苦,你感谢我付出,更感谢我退出.

听说你比从前幸福我只有满足还能有怎样的企图.

当初你迷了路选择我的脚步是不是有些唐突?
我走以后你现在的生活会不会也偶尔想起我?

那所谓的以后还是朋友如何去做.

你曾经说我走以后希望还有联络说实在的我已不能理智对待了.

Lyrics from the song .. so right ! everynight without fail I will emo de ! Is there an anti-emo medications out there in the world for me or at least a medications that let me forget certain things in life ! Tears welled up when I was listening to the song above when I was walking to safra alone this morning. I don't why and how to control it but it just came out. I know I have to let go and move on in life but somehow it is too difficult to do it.

Yesterday !

Went to Yexuan's place to do projects and slack ard ! .. nothing much .. i am fooling around most of e times =DD .. Project declares half DONE ! =S

SKATES TIME !

2010-12-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

Out with the cliques! and so we went to East Coast Park for skates and cycling. It was really fun and an enjoyable day because it feels good to be going out together as a group! Gary learned how to skates today and he kept falling until I dunno how to say but one good thing is the he never complain about his falling though I know it is painful cus I fell once today on my buttock and it still hurts now =.= .. so I admire his spirits ! Jiayous gary !

After the fun at ECP, we went to our once upon a time favourite supper dining place and that is GEYLANG LOR 9 for Frog leg ! awwww , it has been a long time since we last had it and yeah it taste marvellous .. wohooo !

The above photo toooooookkkk a llllllooooonnnnngggg time to be take cus the kopitiam girl dun dare to take for us =.=.. haha ! So we ended our day at Geylang lor 23 after soya bean milk and snacks =DDD .. I never bring my "baby" aka DSLR out today cus i know i will fall on the skates so i cannt afford my "baby" to fall with me ! =XX

&

Yeah today is a fun and happy day !

Am I thinking too much or what I am thinking is right?
Though I no longer have rights to interfere with your life
but I do think you have to do that to me. This is one reason
why you always let me felt insecure at times.God pls tell
me what I am thinking is wrong which i think from the pcitures
i am 99% correct. It just sank me into deeper sorrows.
Thank you for hurting me .

603th post

2010-12-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

Did nothing today except slacking at home.
Another wasted day !

"我是沉默的我只好假装
我已不爱了催眠自己我们不适合
我放开你了我已不爱了
说一个谎在离别时刻
就当作最后是我不爱了
关上门以后就算爱你又如何?"

it just fit my current mood.
I will swallow all my tears into my stomach.

"If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song"

Remember if I really die young , send me away with the words of a love song!
Darren you said before if you die before me, then I shall bring you Sushi
and sunflower seeds everytime I visit you. So if I die young then remember
to send me off with a words of a love song and let my funeral be a happy one !
Thats all i ask for ... and smile whenever you come and visit me. no sluggish face
and no tears !

602th post

2010-12-19T00:37:00.003+08:00

Everthing that beign has an end.
It is just when the end when arrive,that all !

I may seems cold, I may be projected as heartless but all that I had done are done with a special reason which I do not think I should say it out. You can treat that I did you wrong in this relationship. I guess I broke the promise of why we were first togehter and that is
we both are sick of being hurt and we wish to have a relationship that will not
hurt us. But in the end, I end up hurting badly and I guess you are too. I
cried when I saw that message that you sent me, I am loss. I do not
know how to react. I wished someone whom at least understands
me could be by my side and let me a listening ear to my
sorrows.

But,

I ended up crying alone in a corner of my room with my pillow over my face. I know I
should be strong and face it but at some point of my life I really cannot do it
because not crying with only make me more suffering.

Since,

Everything had ended. I should pick up myself and keep all the memories that we both have
shared in my heart and shall never be erase.

And,

I hope, at least once in a long while when you are free you can at least think of me a little and smile at the silly things we did in the past together and the happy things we both
being through because I know I will always think of you .

~The offical end~

My heart is not dead. I hope you will understand it one day. I hope you can find someone better and forget me but not completely. There is alot of things I wish to tell you but I just
do not know how .

KTM bukit timah station

2010-12-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

Went to KTM Bukit Timah Station with the accompany of Darren. Took many nostalgia photos of the railway. If you are free, you can view my facebook for more of my photos =D and if you can like the photos that you like as I need to choose 1 photos of the black and white for my photography assignment! Thank you !

~The end of the road~

back to the old days !

2010-12-18T20:04:00.011+08:00

Went back to my secondary school yesterday with my cliques to meet our dearest teachers !

Group pic #1

Group pic #2

Group pic #3

The girls !

Gary waiting for the girls as they are LATE ! they said meet 2pm and according to gary that will be the girls leaving house time ! haha , so next time we must be a bit smarter!

Some of overdue photos;

Sunset at pandan reservior.

Hope you like the photos =D

The day I was a fireman !

2010-12-17T11:17:00.003+08:00

As per title, I got to be a fireman yesterday at the Civil Defence Academy. It is one of the Basic Safety Training out of the 4 that we all must pass in order to go sailing next year. We were taught how to extingusih fire with various extingiushers. It was boring like hell for the extinguishers part but after that we get to wear the Breathing appartus with we usually see on the tv where the fireman wear a facemask with oxygen tank before entering the fire scene ! The face mask is just like the pic above !

Since young I have been watching this drama called Burning Flames, the above pic ! and i was always inspire to try out what is it like to be in a fire scene ?

And finally yesterday I got a chance to wear that fireman helmet and dress like them ! And most importantly ...

I got to go into a firescene in one of the block, where they light the room with room and we are expected to go into the room and put out the fire in a team ! It the worst kind of experince you will ever want to feel ! The flames are huge like _|_ and you can bearly see anything except the fire and the water host a heavy like cows and the room temperature is like 80degrees ? and whenever you breathe in, you can feel the heat in your throat ! and i have sore thorat now ..

This is how excatly it look like in the fire scene and it can be worse . But overall it is a vaulable lesson and I enjoyed it alot as I finally know I shall not be joining th SCDF during my coming army years because I simply cannot tahan long in the fire scene. I swear I really salute to the firemans because it really requires alot of passion and determination to stay inside to put out fires with all that factors !

After spending 8 to 5 at the academy, I went off to meet my dearest cliques for dinner at Lot1. We had Pizzahut, it has been ages since I ate pizzahut. Whie waiting for the pizzas to be serve, the restarant hired a 14yo boy ? to be the singer cum guitarist for the restuarant customers where he strum and sing beside us while we were having our soup. It was a 'WOW' experince and they even took a photo for us with that little boy and even print for us a picture ! most imptly is that the services of their staffs is VERY GOOD, it is like very polite and helpful. I really think it made my day and my money is well spend. After dinner we went off to meet Xiaowei at her voiddeck area and chill ! I swear we were like some crazy guys but I really enjoy alot !It is a wonderful day for me and I hope for the rest ! and Suen and Xiaowei, thank you for the presents ! =D

~Hope everyday can be like yesterday!~

I guess it the end ?

2010-12-13T23:56:00.004+08:00

Love ? There are many forms of love,family love,friends love and couples love. At some point of time in our life we will need some love and concern but too many a times the method we love someone is often wrong and not what the other person wished for.

Throughout this close to 9months from knowing you till this stage I had tried many methods in our relationship but somehow to be honest it was not what I wanted most. The love that was given to me was not what I want and perharps the love that I gave you was not what you wanted too. I took a hard time and I was struggling for an answer within myself and finally I realise that afterall we are not so suitable to for each other. Neither do you know how my life operates or what I want in my life nor do I know alot about you. Maybe we didn't want each other to suffer what we are suffering but to me I always wanted to step into your life and share it with you but you always push me out of the door. There were many times I wished you could spend that moment with me or at least you could be with me or understand me but everytime it turned out to be a disater. And another reason that we are not suitable is that I don't think that I am ready to miss out parts of your life when I am not around in less than 4 months from now. I really makes my cry whenever I know I cannot be with you when I am not around.I really hate teary nights on my pillow. I guess we are all tired and we had tried. Please forgive me for making this decision. Be strong when I am not with you and be happy because it is not how long it last it is what we use to have before. Though we might not be able to be together anymore but I guess once in awhile I will still think of you and the happy times we both spent together, I hope you will too. I really want to thank you for appearing in mylife and everything that you had done for me. & for now, I guess I will slowly fade away from your life.

~The End~
~I am sorry, once a upon a time I really did wish I can grow old with you but now I realise it was all just a dream.~

Swimming day !

2010-12-12T21:55:00.004+08:00

Lets start off with some pictures I took today, ...

~Christmas is almost here again,around 2 more weeks!~

~Vintage !!~

So from the picture I guess you know where i where today? I went to swim a Mount Faber Safra with Gary and Darren ! Perfect day to swim with the sorching sun above us. I am in a good condition to swim today and I really feel very relax while swimming with my cliques.

After the swim, we went to the nearby coffeeshop and have some dim sum as tea !

Then we head to BMC as darren wants to cut his hair. And it turned out to be worse =.= .. Cannot post his picture as I had promised him not to do so ... actually not so bad la =X

Guess what we saw today at Telok balangah after then swim ?
ELVIN FANS WOR ! This girl was wearing a t-shirt with a printing " Elvinology" as shown below ! ELVIN YOU SO LUCKY LA =X

And i saw this really interesting and meaningful postcard on sale, "Life is full of STOP lights but eventually they are will change to GO", it is very true. In life there are things that will make you happy and there will be some that will make you upset, it is how you interpet it that makes the difference.

"Nobody is prefect" - This phrase is right. We are all humans and we tend to make mistakes along the way and we need our family and friends to remind us our mistake we made and we need to accept the fact and try to make changes to it. For me, I do admit that I had made alot of mistakes and at times I am very stubborn and I insist that I am right and I am always right! But at the end of the day, when i asked myself what did i gain? NOTHING! but people wrong impression of me. So now I am trying my best to change, to change to a person that will accept the fact of the wrong of me and attempt to change to become a better person ! FYI, I don't mean anything harmful to you about those comments, I just want you to realise that you do mean alot to me in my heart too thats why I have such huge reactions of what you did. You really do mean alot to me! I apologise if I had made you unhappy recently.

I am angry because you do mean something to me if not I don't think I will have any reactions.
and at the end of the day, you are still someone very important to me in everypart of my life!

Cooking day !

2010-12-12T01:26:00.004+08:00

To start off my blog post of today/yesterday I shall begin with a random picture I took of the HDB flat. (Above)

darren,suen,elvin,darren and dillon decide to whip up a homecook meal at Darren's place but in the end my good friend overslept and did not appear . So we went to BMC to buy the things we want to cook .

It was raining cats and dogs when we arrived there !

My first partner featured for the day : Suen AKA XIAOYANJIN

My Second partner featured for the day : Darren AKA AHPUI

My third partner featured for the day : Munyee AKA PIG !

And here we set off to hunt the supermarket ! ...

~Munyee so happy ! ~

~munyee thinking what to cook !~

While waiting these people as usual they will play computer while some of us prepare the cooking !

Suen workpiece of the day : Creamy MushMushROOM soup ! surp surp ! 3.8/5Stars !

Our dinner done ! Guess how much it is for per person for this sumptous dinner ?
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The answer is 2 DOLLAR nia ! in fact is $9.80 divded by 5 of us ! and we eat until like going to explode liao ! So worthy to eat at home la ... and is so nice to have us sitting down and dine together a homely meal ! it is just so 'famil warmth' feeling ! <3 my cliques !

Below are some picture of my little model who loves to take photo !
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For more of his expressive face pictures you can visit my facebook for the album.

Thats all for today ! byebye peeps ! Please contiue to support my blog ah for daily updates =D

Be strong ! Resist your darkest Temptations !

2010-12-11T00:34:00.010+08:00

1st stop of the day , Bukit Batok Driving Centre !
Went there to book the test date for my Basic Theory Test and
the next available slot is like 1.5months from now .. Bussss from
Vivo to Bukit Batok is hell for me as before boarding I had a
heavy lunch at Seah Inn food centre and the bus was tumbling
like _|_ ! srsly i felt like vomiting ..

Next stop is Melvin's house ! It has been ages since I last
when to his place and up above in the picture he was trying
to find watch movie are we going to watch later ... and while
waiting for Jie from her workplace .

3rd stop ! GONG CHA AGAIN ! wooohhhooo I<3gc !

~ardui why must stir lei ! ~ ~Mel with his 'THUMBS UP" and "FORK OFF" !~

i kinda loss count .. what is the last stop number ah ?
anyway next we when to The Asian Kitchen for dinner
and it was after a long long consideration from jie cus
he cannot decide what she wants to eat ah ...

~Depicts like a drama lei !~

~OHHHH ! what is that ! WATER ?~

~My order , Hot and sour noodle~

Right after dinner we chiong to Marina Square GV to collect
our tickets for The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage Of The Dawn Treader *In 3D*

I love this movie soooooo much .. for that 1oo odd mins i felt
like i really live in the story ! Super engross ! and the show is
marvellous ! 4.5/5 star for me =DDD

It has been a long time since I go out and relax like today and hang out
with mel and jie . Sometimes I think i should spend more time with
the people around me because my friends always makes my day a
good one ! And I kinda love going out alone like today to BBDC .. Plug
in the eyepiece with great music and a magazine ! aww life seems to
slow down at that moment ... is good to be alone sometimes ! Don't
you agree everyone needs their own time ?

Random Shots :

Bukit merah seconday ! My seconday sch <3>

~ a glance of the outside world ~

lights up !

Will you be here to the end of this road ?

Empty ..

2010-12-09T21:42:00.005+08:00

Blog has be revamped finally !

The background picture is taken by me de ah ..

Lets start this post with something nice and thats ..
EXAMS ARE OVER FOR NOW AT LEAST =.=
but i got tons of things to do during this holiday but I
dun mind cus i can have my beauty sleep and I have
a chalet this month which I am looking forward to it !

Anyway I just rebond my fringe today .. AWW is like so
straight now ! HAPPY LIAO .. haha .. hate my curlsss !
and i spend like $45 dollar for Rebond fringe,Protein
treatment and Cut , it is like very cheap liao and his
skills not bad ah ! haha cus is my friend =XX

COME ON I LOVE THIS PIC LAH!

The following pics is my old Hamster .. she is about 2yo and to be exact
she is born 2 weeks before my birthday and i bought her 1year plus back
on my Secondary 4 birthday ! Her lifespan is about 2years old alr .. so I
am preparing myself for her departure ... as I see her getting weaker and
less active everyday .. I guess everything has an 'expiry date".. I just hate
depature =(

2010-11-03T13:34:00.003+08:00

2 more days before i fly to Taipei with my friends =DD
My longed wish of travelling tgt with my cliques can finally be
fullfill !!

Today is a short short day .. 3 hours of lecture and that the END !
and guess what ? I have inline skating lesson today ! .. i always
wanted to learn how skates ...

您佔據了我的心

2010-10-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

Meet baby today at orchard for dinner and shopping for my toilet
bowl toy !! we had SHARKFINS & BIRDNEST feast .. not very
exp , price is still quite reasonable and the taste is greatttt ! the
about picture is what i had , " Minced Spinach sharkfin soup " ..
Sounds new right ? no?? maybe is i too countrybumpkin bah =x

6 more days to TAIPEI trip !!!

2010-10-28T22:52:00.004+08:00

Glad to have a friend that is the 'same' kind !
At least you understand my feelings !

Today is the day to submit my hardwork in photography but in the end i
tio rejectedwith only 1 pic and 1 pic must retake to get high marks ..

"Extraodinary on the odinary road" ~PASSED~

"extraodrinary view" ~RETAKE~
comments : composition is good but the foreground too heavy !

I really went round shooting for 4 hours la ..
& i finally know what is the phrase " in a thousands shots there
may only be one that can be accepted "

as for us ... Hot and cold .. sometimes i dunno whether am i doing
the correct thing or wrong .. how how ?? 8 more days to 6 months
of us being together .. We been thru so much it is quite a pity to
give up now but neither you nor i are making any effort to make
a turning point in our rs ..

God enlighten me !

2010-10-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

Life is unexpectable .. This minute you may be breathing and
sitting infront of a computer and the next minute you might
die of a heartattack ! Or next the next second someone is going
to tell you something that will shock you to death !

Today I read a new book and there was an inspiring phrase,
"Falling in love and staying in a love relationship is a different thing,
falling in love is addictive but staying in love is another story .. "
It is quite true! I remember back then when I have no stead i always
wanted one but when i have it i feel kind of tired to carrying on due
to certain issues .. But everytime i try to forgive & forget but it is
easier to say then to do it ! Seriously I do not how many tries should
I give to myself and to us ... i did alot of things to make everything work
out well but either party is always not interested .. " a clap needs 2 hands
to make it "

This time going to Taiwan I am going to really think clearly about our
relationship and whether should we continue or not ? because i told
myself i want to be happy but it is not happening to me !

I cried , i screamed, i prayed to god we will be together for good but
nothing seems to work. I really did tried.

Nothing hurts more than realizing that person meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to that person !

2010-10-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

very busy for the 1st week of sch ! Didn't had a chance to
meet my cliques .. i guess i will clear up many things this weekend
thus i can meet them soon !

recently i have not been feeling very well .. to be truthful to myself
i found large amount of blood in my stool, constant abdominal pain
as well as uncontrolable diarrhea .. and i don't feel very right in fact
i am scare . I checked on the net and i found that blood + pain +
diarrhea may meant that i might be suffering from colon or stomach
cancer and most of the other symptoms just fits my case .. i am really
freak out though i told myself i need not think too much ..

If one day it really happens to be some sorts of cancer or serious illness
i will not seek any medical treatment or surgery .. I will rather die away
then going thru the process of treatments which i know i will not be
able to make it thru ..

i will go with the wind ..

2010-09-17T22:49:00.002+08:00

happy happy day !!! really very happppppyyyy ..

There is a saying that goes like this, ' Forget about what happened
yesterday as it has pass,don't worry about the future as it is yet
to be here just be happy of what is happening now ! '

I think it is very true lor .. Frankly speaking, I suddenly felt that
it does really matter whether we will be together in the future because
I can say we are very happy and sweet now ! 'A relationship doesn't
count in the number of days we are together but the how happy are
we when we are together !'

不管未来会怎麽样,至少我们现在很开心,不管结局会怎麽样,至少想念的人是你,我不会把它当作游戏 ,因为我真心对你

2010-09-12T14:12:00.002+08:00

From the lyrics,

不管未来会怎麽样
至少我们现在很开心
不管结局会怎麽样
至少想念的人是你
我不会把它当作游戏
因为我真心对你

Once upon a time , i can still tell myself this with tons of confidence.
but now .. somehow i don't know why or how .. i not longer have the
trust in me.. Can you bring that confidence back to me ?

To you ..

2010-09-09T23:42:00.002+08:00

I saw the msg you sent me but all I can say , I dunno how to reply that msg ... When you ask what happened between us ? i can only say i also dunno , maybe i am jealous that you have new friends in your new poly or maybe i really hated you attitude that you treat people ..

Do you know ? I am working back where we previous worked together ? and whenever you ex colleagues asked me " where is ah shane ? " i will like stumbled and say " orh .. i dun really know .." .. and whenever i looked around you are not longer there to pop by my desk and asked me what am i doing . Somehow whenever i sat in office i feel that something is missing now ..

It is really a pity that we used to be great buddies for studies and playing but now it seems that i no longer how to speak to you. I guess it is true about the saying that " all human changes to suit with the enviroment." .. I do not blame you actually but somehow you will sometimes pop out in my mind .. sometimes i wonder how you are doing and if you are doing well in your studies ? ..

Probably the main reason why i dun really feel like talking to you anymore is because you were no longer the Goh Kok Kiang i used to know but you are Shane Goh now and nothing can change you back because the old you has gone with time and wind .. And it is not your ~ex~ fault that i decided to stop talking to you , it is because you had totally changed into someone i dunno and she did nothing that influence my decision ..

2010-09-01T14:06:00.004+08:00

so long since i blog ! and today i am going to blog about bitches ..

at first wanted to go to the school library and sit down and study..
we settle down in an area where it was alot of people and everyone
was talking quite loudly but there was 2 lonely bitches sitting infront
making irrating sound like "shhhh" and "walao buay tahan liao" ! ..
i was sibie dulan like they aiming us when everyone is talking !!
but we dun care and continue to talk even louder .. and there bitchs
just continue making those sounds !

I mean I know this is a library but cant we even talk in our normal
tone ? If you seriously want to have peace and serenity while studying
the i suggest you go to the quiet zone or if the fucking zone is full the
head to level 4A toilet and sit on the bowl to study ! Fret not there will
be peace,serenity plus inspiration and shit be with you !

This fucking bitches !

And i don't mind not being a gentleman because you don't deserve it
anyway !

2010-08-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

Okay Japan trip has been confrimed so as the flight that we will
be taking . Quite excited about it as it is first time in my whole life
to visit Japan and it has been like a lifelong dream to me ! .. haha XD

Next exams a setting in soon , kinda looking forward to it because
i know once i clear it and that is it I AM FREE to do whatever I like !
and of cus i have lots of plan to spent my holiday with my friends ^^

Life is all about acting !

2010-08-13T21:43:00.004+08:00

I kept pondering these days about something , srsly i wonder
do you sleep well at night after doing some many evil things
and try to harm ppl ? or doesn't your guilty conscience slowly
tear apart from inside out ? srsly it does happen to me whenever
i try to harm ppl or do something evil and that feeling is so awlful
that i have no mood to do anything ..

Life is a drama, everyone can pretend but one fine day god will be
here to punish you for everything that you had done and I believe
in their presence ! In life what goes around come around and that
is call karma and believe it or not it does present. Mom always
tell me from young that 'I should treat people the way I want people
to treat me'. Though is hard to do it but I always try my best as
long as it does not go against my principles of life.

For now I can only wish that may god be with you to guide you to
the correct path of life again because I believe no one in this world
is evil in nature .. You may do things to protect yourself but do not
do it at the expense of others !

God can only help you when start helping yourself .

一廂情願

2010-08-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

Too tired ? maybe bah .. Like i said in fb "if one day i choose to
leave , it is because i am too tired and too much agony and not
because i do not love you anymore" . The more i engross myself
into this the more I am hurt .. I am not going to yao sheng yao
si like what i said before . but at least i can tell myself that I
tried to reveal my real self but somehow we cannot sync together
like how others can . I really tried but the more i try the more
pain i am putting myself thru .

Frankly speaking , i ever thought that we can grow old together
but i find it impossible now . it was just my foolish thoughts and
all are my thoughts not ours . there are many things i want to
do together with you but somehow we never have time . I want
to be truthful to you but you always hide your things from me.

Probably it is all 一廂情願 thoughts . I really did tried my best.
I dunno what else I can do . maybe you want to tell me ?

~The End~

2010-08-09T21:41:00.003+08:00

Our today is national day and quite surprisingly mom cook
for me .. we had a little dinner celebration and she cooked seafood
tom yam soup, friend kailian and i cooked chicken bulgogi !
it has been a long time since i sat down and every a proper meal
with my mom and i hope while i am here i can spend more time
with my mom and have more meals with her more often ..

secondly i most likely will be going back to Regional Container Lines
(RCL) to work for my holidays as i hope to earn extra bucks for
my holidays and i wish to have more contact with the shipping
industry ..

i am not angry is not because i have no anger
but i want you to know the fact that i love you
thus i am not angry .. but as this carry on i start to
feel tired alr .. i start not give a damn anymore
about whether you will sms me or call me because
the gap in between us is too wide , since the last quarrel
i had tried my best to fill up whatever i can but somehow
i think you no longer give a damn anymore too thus you
always give me a cold shoulder .. i am tried and fragile ,
tell me what you really want .. i tell myself i will tried 3
times and this the last try i am going to take .. i kept
asking myself if 'love is about giving and taking' but why
i keep trying to give but nothing came back in return ?

2010-08-08T14:15:00.003+08:00

Long time since i blogged as i was too busy to blog !

Today is a great great weekend as i went to run with suen
in the morning and sweating like a pig and mom cooked my
favourite pig trotter beehoon .. but the stuffs that is coming
up in the later part of the day i hate ..

WHY ?

Frankly speaking , i am pissed, i mean very pissed with something.
I DUN MIND NOT GOING TO JAPAN NOW .. first of all the
craps my lect wants us to do like sing 8 fucking SONGS included
1 Cherography song , 4 English songs, 1 Chinese and 2 Japanese
which i cant even pronouce or memorise them .. and he want us
to play badminton friendly matches with the japanese and he
wan us to have a friendly SWIMMING competition with them
during the fucking season of winter ! WTF ? On second thoughts
i felt like we are entertainers instead of students going there to
learn new things .. and I shall renounced that I AM NOT A SP
ENTERTAINER ! I dun mind singing but at least not so many songs
and other factors i dun wish to mention . AND i dun like the way
thins are handled in the team, making decisions without consulting
any of us and plenty of last min things which i had .. i mean at least
have an itenary presented to us and not whenever you like you
meet i am a human i have my own life to led too .. and mom agree
with me and she is right that if i am not happy of going japan wad
is the point spending the money and go since i dun enjoy the process.

And one more thing ,

Whether you like it or not or you feel offenisve but i shall tell you that
i am a structive person which means i planned my days and everything
way before thus I am someone who has LAST MINUTE THINGS and
I shall not go any last minute stuff regardless of any event cus it just
fucking pissed me to the max . Everyone has a life to lead, i dun like
my life to be run this mannered.

It may be offensive but I have my own principle to follow and I am going
to be a future sea navigator who is responsble for all my actions and I
am not going to make any last minute decision because last minute stuff
prove that the person has no discipline in life at all.

I am not saying anyone here , i am just say out my views . If you think
i am mentioning about you and you want to gossip and make a big fuss
out of it pls go ahead because this prove that you are gulity.

2010-08-01T22:34:00.003+08:00

i really loss it this time .. totally loss it ..
suddenly felt like crying and i dunno what to do
now .. i am tired of leading this kind of life i am
leading .. i am breathless , just leave me alone ,
i finally know what is it meant by when you are
not destined to own it , it may seems to be a small
thing to you but you are not me .. those were the
last memories i had with wujing and many other
ppl i treasured alot and those memories will just
go with my age one day , slowly but surely

MEL CAMP !

2010-07-15T12:53:00.004+08:00

Okay i felt that i should blog about the MEL camp.

I meet Ye xuan at vivo for lunch at ard 11 am .. we had LJS
before we depart .. then we went to meet the group at the boarding
area and there were tons of people await to board the superstar virgo !
i felt kinda regret when i look at my luggage ,i bought like 8 shirts for
4D3N trip .. haha ! We had workshop at ard 1530h and we witnessed
the ship set sail at the front part of the vessel .. it was so cool and the whole
ship was trembling ...

I cannot rmb much about the details of the trip but wad i rmb is only the
FOOD ! i ate and ate the whole day until i am sooooo full and bloated ..
we had buffet ,fine dining and chinese food for meals and the portion is
unlimited man ! felt like a super class person .. until now i still cant
get use to not eating the amount i ate at cruise ! at crusie i can eat dinner
for twice and then supper again man .. but in the end i measured my weight
yesterday it was still 50kg ! ..

What i enjoyed most is when we were at phuket, the point where the islands
were .. it was super nice and windy and the scenery was perfect !

really let my hair down at this camp .. i did spa , eat , slp and glaze at stars
in the night ! it was truly fun and enjoyable !

for pictures refer to my facebook but i will post some that i like most !

Hammmie i love you !

2010-07-08T21:54:00.002+08:00

ok no matter how sad i am now i still got to write up this post
for my passed away hamster !

You may ask me why you bought hamsters ? 1.5 years back
my life was quite miserable and i do not have much friends as
i was still in conflict with dillon and guys so on my 17th birthday
i decided to buy a pet that can pei me,play with me and listen to
me so i chosen hamster as i have asthma background and my
dad did not like furry pets .. When i bought her she was only
around 1 to 2 weeks old and you can imagine how small she was
that time compare to now .. she indeed pei me did many things
like playing with me, running away from home and being a big
greedy pig ! and she went thru many things with me and heard
many of my sorrows .. but now she is gone and i kinda predicted
it cause the average lifespan of hamsters are 2 years .. so i kinda
tearing and emo now.. dunno how to take my CA2 test tmr ..

All i hope is that she die in peace and may she reincarnate into
a human with good life .. cus i feel sorry for her as since poly
life started i have not been taking good care of her due to the
tons of homework i have .. i kinda blame myself for her death
now .. looking at her empty cage just make my tears kept rolling
down as i suddenly went into my past memories ..

Goodbye and Thank you for being my pet and being
in my life when i need someone to cheer me up cus
looking at you just make me very happy everyday !

not selected ..

2010-07-05T21:51:00.003+08:00

The results for the Japan trip is out !
and i am not selected but only place in the reserved list ..
felt happy and sad though , sad ? because i was hoping
i can visit japan since i was young and i am someone who
hope to visit as many countries as possible and see how
people in other parts of the work live .. happy ? that means
i can save up to like $1600 for my taiwan trip on nov with
my best friends ! and i am going to eat until i burst in taiwan !

Life is not so bad afterall , take away something from you but
gave you something back in return !

As for studies , currently i am choinging for my upcoming
ICA2 exam on friday ..
For ICA1 i personally felt that i did quite well but not the best
i think ..

Princple of Navigation - 78/100 (B+, 3.5)
Maths - 72/100 (B-,3)
Ship Knowledge - 92/100 (A, 4)
Shipping practice - 83/100 (A, 4)
Watching keeping and instrument - Pending

Current GPA - 3.68 /4

It is not very high though but to me it is done quite well !
I will put in more efforts in the tests that are coming up and
make sure i score better ! There is nothing to compare or
who to compare with all you need to do is ask yourself ,'
have you done your best ?' and your greatest oppenent
is yourslef !

~ Life ~

2010-07-01T22:35:00.007+08:00

The past weeks I have been thinking why god didn;t let me choose who I want my parents to be ,where is should be born, rich or poor i want and my looks and features and the list will go on and on .. I felt that life is unfair cause i didnt have a chance to choose and i was put in it .. and everytime i see a very rich person i envy them ,i envy their kids i envy their everything ! and when I am suffering in life i start to grumble and cry seek for a shoulder to comfort me seeking for someone, who understands me, seeking for someone who can help me .. but i forgetten one thing at least i am still alive and the most thankful thing because my life is in my hands !

God did not gave us to right to let me choose my parents non let me choose where I wanna be born but one thing he gave me to choose is how i want to led my life ! I this world only result can better you to a higher peak in life and that is the only thing ppl guage you thus everytime during an exam i wanna do the best as i know it is part of my future that i wan lead ! I want to be a successful person,I want my mom to lead a comfort and carefree live, I want to be rich,I want to enjoy my job,I want my current cliques to be still my oldies friends and I want everything that I did not get in my life except for love,laughter and peace which i cant get even if i am someone in life ..

I found my answer to my own question . I found the reason why I am living for. I found a new me in me. I also found a friends who care for me and willing to standby me.

and if one day you find yourself kelian/poor thing, let me tell you ,you are nothing compare to kids in africa , they do not have to eat normal food like u or should i say do they get to eat ? ,at least you are breathing and slping in your bed comfortablely but what about them?if you think you are most unluncky person on earth then what are the kids in africa ?

you what i detest the most now ? O level students wasting their time , until this year I realise how important is to do well in your o levels, if you are given a chance to study you better study hard because it decides your future, your dreams but if you choose otherwise then don't regret in the future and start blaming your mum not giving you tution and everyone else except YOURSELF ..

I am a straightforward person and truth tends to be painful so pls pardon me.

~the end~

Publish Post

Dunno why i have so much feelings today .. maybe these days i have been do my 'face the wall self -reflections' .. and those people who are disabled but they have a strong mind to able to lead a normal life as they want to be ..

dunno why i realise i rise my 'white flag' .
i cant do it anymore. too much of agony . too painful.
i am out of breath. i am leaving.& i know i 'll regret cus i
already am.

2010-06-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

Oh man i think it is quite true to like 80 % ? What you guys think ?

This is based on my name and birthday and they generate a personality thingy out !

aaron chan fu hao 19/04/1992

Here it begins ;

You are Green Raccoon, who is straightforward person. ~agree, I dun give anyone face!~
You don't try to make yourself look great. ~i try to a certain extend~
You are very much a gentleman, and the way you talk is very gentle and can have a conversation with anyone. ~mmm not very true but i can have a conversation with anyone.~
People may think you as a shy person, because of your attitude of first listen to others before making your own comment. ~ Yes ! ~
But this means that you have a strong will power. ~ YEAH i got plenty!~
You can show persistent perseverance, and believes everything lies in effort. ~ Very True~
Once you start something, you have the will power to complete it. ~Yup thats me !~
You put priority in trust, and therefore are extremely consistent. ~Ever since poly start that this part of me start to develop ~
You can not say "no" to favors, and is a person of strong volunteering spirit. ~yeah,it is hard to say no to ppl you know !~
You have a strong sense of justice and because of this, you sometimes point out things that others do not want to be commented on. ~oh yeah i do this and i hope that person can change for the better and not backstab that person from behing~
Your weakness is you love to argue, and lack flexibility. ~YEAH ! stubborn ~
You tend to be extremely cautious, and because of this, you can miss opportunities. ~yeah i missed alot of opportunities in life~
If you acquire skills in anything you are interested in, and act more confidently, you would be able to call in good fortune. ~yeah just like history and social studies!~
You are not interested in money, so even if you save up, you tend to lavish it all. ~i am and yes i tend to lavish it all !~
You won't need to worry about basic necessities. ~not really true! for now yes i am worried~
If you want to be mentally mature, then don't do things in a rush. ~at time i does thing in a rush manner ~
Your great personality will come out in later years. ~hope so ~
It may be good for you to lead a conservative life as a normal office worker. ~aghhh i hate office work 9-5 ,boring, i wan to be my CAPTAIN ~

Credits to SUEN ^.^ for the above test !

Hardwork paid off !

2010-06-28T20:09:00.002+08:00

First day of sch ! quite relunctant to wake up actually but
something motivated ??

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...
....
.....

it is that we can get back our test paper to catch a glimpse of it.
and yeah for one of my module, Ship Knowledge, I scored 92/100 .
I can say I am quite satisfied with 92 but I can score 98 de but
as usual I had one careless mistake if not I will have scored the
highest mark I had ever scored other than History and Social
Studies in secondary time ! Nevertheless I am going to work
hard and practice more so that the same mistake of careless
shall not happen again and that I can break my own highest
score point ! GOGO AARONCHAN !!!!

i start to feel tired ,i dunno why .

Wadever that cannot kill me, makes me a stronger person !

2010-06-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

quite a fun day ! ystd, we slack at darren place and as usual
mahjong & dota-ing ! we then went to great world for dinner,
Korean Food, though it is located at food junction but the taste
of the korean food is not bad in face the lady boss is a Korean
herself !

We bought toonnnnsss of tibits and alchol at cold storage before
heading to gary's house to ton for the night ! I bought Peach
Barcadi .. the taste is quite bland cus the content of alchol in
it is 4.8% only ..

on the way we started talking about our ghostly encounters and
dy and darren start to get so scare to go gary's place ...

in the end we reach gary place at ard 9 plus and we took turns to
wash up ourselves before we head into his room to ton !

and so ...

at 12am we took out the alchol and start chilling out .. after drinking,
gary face turned REDDDDD and darren was like dying , he has headache &
so fast heartbeat ! wooohh scary !

and for today ...

we slack at his place for the whole day until ard 5pm where darren,dy and
me head to chinatown for dinner and gary went out with his family for
dinner .. as usual we had Koi cafe and Chicken rice !..hehe then we pei
dy walk to her bus stop before we head home ..

~the end~

Quoted from Horoscope prediction for Aries.( I am not a horoscope fanatic but today i suddenly got the urge to go see the prediction)

For 20/06/2010:

"In fact, things are likely to be in a state of upheaval there, but you can expect that things will turn out well no matter what the beginning stages might look like."

my respond ..
It is in fact quite true ! I believe that everything has a beginning and has an ending ..
The world is round and the fate spins around, you may be very rich one day but that
does not meant that you are going to be rich forever .. Only the Kind soul has kind
rebates and evil soul will have their rightful retributation !

Once a upon time I have everything but it does mean
anything .. In life when you gain something you will lose
something because you cannot have everything in the world !

2010-06-19T09:03:00.004+08:00

In life when you have something that people don;t
have you bound to lose something that you have.

Chinese believed that 'one's life in this life is determine
by what you had done in your previous life' .

I guess if this is true then I must be a fortunate and evil
person who have harm countless people in my previous
life.

If one day god will to grant me one wish on anything,
i wish that I have not come to this world, I choose to be
a spirit a ghost or wadever but not a human that has
emotional feelings and pain.

I am a person who rather run away from the truth then
facing it all alone. I know this make me a coward but not
i dunwan to face it strongly but i dunno how to .

Blogging & writing my journal is the only place where i
can be truthful to myself.

CAMP !!

2010-06-17T18:22:00.002+08:00

oh finally back from my course camp.. had lots of fun and
new expereiences this 2 days ! ..

1st
Meet YeXuan at Vivo then we bus-ed tgt go to Poly Marina
but in the end it rain soooo heavily and we took a cab into
campsite .. as it was raining we had to cancel many activities
thus in the end we played soccer and captain's ball in the field
& so we all turned fucking muddy &dirty !! woo shiok ! i got
free ' mud spa' !

After that we had JETTY JUMP ~HIGHLIGHT~ !! omg ..
when it was my turn i was quite scare .. i stood up above like
4m high and the wind was blowing and my mind started to
whirl whether to jump anot .. in the end i jump without much
more hesitation ! .. 'ahhhh ' powww... drank a mouth full of
sea water ..ekkkk !

soon after the jump we rush to bath and rush for the Grand
Dinner Recepition at SP .. All dressed in uniform and a
chartered bus came to pick us up .. wohoo.. the venue of the
dinner was Grand ! simply like wedding dinner .. i was put in
the ushering role with ZiJun,Rabi,Bryan,Kenny .. woo we
done lots of things to entertain ourselves ! haha =x

2nd
Couldn't slp the whole night .. woke up at 7am to prepare to leave
for a deserted island ,Pulau Hantu ! 6 person per speed boat took
us to that island .. wohoo it was damn damn cool as it was my
first time on speed boat .. super rocky and wet .. and guess wad?
on the main channel of the sea , i saw the vessel, Xin Xia Men ,
it was a transhipment vessel which one of my ex company frequent
vessel .. i suddenly felt so much ! saw lots of things and vessel out
at the sea as well ! eye opener !

After we reach the island we roam ard the island on the low tide beach
which we saw crabs and many many more things ! .. and we walked the
whole island .. and down with lunch and water activities ! wohoo love it!

then ard 1600h we took the SP Yatch, SP Dover back to camp site !
oh btw our campsite is by the sea & beside a jetty for yatch to park ..
super cool ! my first time on the yatch ! haha !

and

NOW .. i just reached home and finished my hearty dinner ! and and and
I AM GOING TO BED ! sooooo tired !!! and and and tmr got CIP .. SHIT!!

bye ppl !

2010-06-14T19:49:00.003+08:00

Awww finally holidays is here !
Slept the whole entire even though I have planned something
to do beforehand .. Nevertheless I shall do it tomorrow !

Have plenty of things to complete before school re-open !

1) CRS preparation execrise for CA2 .
2) Capt. Yan Project on Maritime Security.
3) PON revision for CA2 after the HOLs.
4) Camp to attend. ( 16/06 - 17/06)
5) CIP to be complete.
6) Ferry Emergency Recuse Execrise to attend.

And up with my lastest addiction of song is ,

小宇 - 終於說出口

I enjoyed the way he project his voice and I feel that his lyric
is very simple yet meaningful & truthful .. Heard this song yesterday
at darren's place from a tv programme named XING GUANG CHUAN QI .

Be strong ! Be happy !

aimless life !

2010-06-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

Went to Paya Lebar in the morning for my Oshima & Hiroshima, Japan
trip interview .. waiting for like 50 over mins !! .. hopefully i can get
to go because i is going to be a fablous experience for me and i strongly
believe it will aid me when i am studying my rules of the road and
equipments and stuffs !

After that i walking aimlessly around until i see a bus stop i like and start
to see which bus goes to a swimming pool where i can swim .. and i sat in
the bus for the whole hour ..

I went to look for food and guess what i found ? BK ! cheap and big in
portion .. $4.95 includes Burger,Fries,Drink and a Taro pie .. I know
i look cheapo now but bo bian i am in a crisis now .. cannot afford to
have fablous which i used to have .. and cannot spend money like i
how did before .. cannot buy snacks that i once love to eat .. and i
have to bring water and biscuits in my bag, always because i must
be careful where i spend my money .. this is a good experience for
me .. it is the way how you interpet it , yes i may feel sad and cheap
but later i feel that it is not a bad thing after all , i mean i am a future
to be ship 'captain' , there will be more situations where i am going
to face so for now take it as a priceless lesson !

I know saying all these seems to be cheating myself .. but what else
can i do other then to cheat myself and the people around me ?
should i put a worried face,sad face,unhappy face and affect everyone's
happy mood ? NO i am not going to do that , it is so selfish ! I know
people around me are concern about me but this is a process where
i can only help myself .. suen and dengyi , i am sorry i know lately i
have not projecting my true self but showing another aaron , the
reason why i did this was that you people are the ones i cared most
thus i dun want to affect anybody's mood and cause everyone to
worried and it is not i dun wan to meet you guys lately it is because
i cant , i am sorry people .. dun worry about me , i will be fine ..

the only thing that can make me forget everything temporary is
going for aikido training and swimming..

nobody's life is a smooth sailing vessel at some point or other
you will meet with a situation .. you may have all the glory now
but one day you will also lose all of those you gained .. once upon
a time i used to had everything but it does mean anything..

3 MORE to go !!

2010-06-08T21:08:00.002+08:00

Saw this really interesting phrase today ,
" Some people dream about success but how many
truly work towards it ? " and i start to feel abit embarrassing
because in the past i will only say but no actions but now
i feel that i start to grow up and face the fact that ( NO EFFORT
PUT IN = NO RESULTS ) & ( EFFORT PUT IN X TIME = RESULTS)..
and in the recent exams then i really feel it .. I have put in
alot of effort into this CA but i feel tat it is not enough because the
grading system in my school is too hard ..

I can hardly imagine if i obtain a just pass for all my subjects
and i think my GPA will be less then 2 liao and my scholarship
will start to ask me pay BACK the MONEY they spent on me !

Look at the formule below and try to tabulate your own goal ,

GPA = (module credit units X module grade point)
------------------------------------------
(module credit units)

This is my credit unit and it can be obtain from mysas>acadamic>progress report

This is the grading point,
http://www.sp.edu.sg/wps/portal/vp-spws/!ut/p/c0/04_SB8K8xLLM9MSSzPy8xBz9CP0os_hQD1NXIzdTEwN3swADA09_C29Tx1AzQ29zM_2CbEdFAFe4Y9o!/

and my target or the target my lecture has set for all those on
scholarship are GPA 3.5 which is like I M P O S S I B L E for me ..
it is like i can only obtain either B+ or A for all and nothing else..
How to get !!! I dun wan to lose my scholarship !!!

A Twist In My Story , How much longer ?

2010-06-01T22:29:00.004+08:00

i am seriously down these days .. i broke into tears infront of
my classmates yesterday due some of the problems in my family..
I can say I am badly affected by it .. I will say it is going to be quite
a huge one! i really dunno whether how am i going to make it thru
this time and exams is next week but i just cannot concentrate on
the stuffs i am doing ..

I know every family faced family problems but there are family
without any problems .. i seen many of my friends living with
perfect but why me now ?

all i can say is that if love does not exist anymore i rather they
separate and i dun wan to be the reason why .. i dun wan to live
in this kind of enviroment ANYMORE ! I WAN LEAVE FOR THE
SEA ..

i am thankful to my classmates who concerned about me .. thanks
alot , i will be fine ..

& now ,
i can go out anymore .. 1) I am facing very bad financial crisis
2) I need to do well for my exams
3) I am no longer in mood to do anything . . .
I just need someone that I can pour all my heartfelts out ..
Who will be the one ?? the pain & sorrow is like

會呼吸的痛

2010-05-30T22:25:00.006+08:00

I may not show that i can about certain things but I deep in
my heart it does bothers me alot .. this is me, i just want my face ..
Smiling everyday is my motto of life .. I love and I deserve to be
happy every single second of my life !

愛不單行

protect me & love me PLEASE ! ♥

2010-05-24T20:00:00.002+08:00

I found that person but am I the one you are looking for ?
I miss you but are you missing me too ?
I do love you but you love me ?
I have done many things to make you happy but are you?

If there is a 'dream come true' wishing well and I have only 1 wish,
that wish will be that I wish that you will forever be on my side and
never leave me a single step.

3.87 Degreeeeeeeee FEVER !

2010-05-19T16:42:00.005+08:00

Sick again ! this is my second time i ill this month !
Hate it man ! Lucky today got no much of a lesson ..
This time is quite bad , 37.8 deg + cough + sore throat +
body ache + nauseous + GIDDY !

Anyway guys , I am going f0r a Camp on the Superstar
Virgo on 11July to 14July .. It has been since like ? 11 years?
since i last go on star cruise ! Excited .. Happy to be selected
,Sad that i have to pay myself ... I am gooonnnnnaa eat and
eat on the cruise !

♥ Lovessssssss U ♥

2010-05-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

When I am in love i cannot seems to slep because living
in the reality is better than dreaming ! Spending with you
is one of the best thing that has happened to me !

I really do love you alot but
if one you need to go pls let me go gently ..

BUSY BUSY !

2010-05-10T19:53:00.003+08:00

awww ! it has been a long long while since i blogged
cus i really cannot find any spare time to blog ..

I have been really busy with schoolwork, tutorials,
projects,groupwork & many more =x .. sometimes
i feel like just giving up but to think i have worked
so hard and i am on a scholarship which makes me a
scholar will actually push me more !!

CA1 is coming up so i need to work harder to achieve
3.5 GPA which my lect had set for those on scholarships ..

can you tell me ?

more and more tired !

2010-04-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Just done with my group tutorial work .. damn slpy now !

Life has been a hectic one ever since the start of day 1 ,
what I did was Sleep ,go school , go home ,do homework and
the cycle repeat itself again !

Went to the CCA fair today , pending to join either Aikido or
Inline Skating ? I kinda like both but I am limiting myself to
one only as I am already very tired and busy with schoolwork..

I totally forgetten what I wanna blog already ..

anyway i found that this sentence has done great impact in my life,

If you want something in your life , don't just keep telling
everyone how much you want it and what are the things
you going to get if you had it and it goes on But did you
realise that telling is easy, doing it is another story ? Thus
if you want something in your life do something about it
like adjusting your lifestyle because if you just going to
sit down here and continue saying and dreaming of what you
want it will never come because you are doing nothing about
it !

And so , I have been trying very hard to push myself to read
and understand the lectures and lesson taught because I know
what i wan does not come free in fact nothing comes free in
life , everything comes with liabilites .. so i gonna work
x100 harder !

5A Class Outing day !

2010-04-24T23:13:00.004+08:00

5A Class Outing today @ Marina Barrage !
As usual I am late due to some last minute problems &
today mine is i cannot find my EZ Link card =x ! fuck
it i was so pek chey ..

& in the end I reached there first as I took cab down and
my classmates has to wait for the shuttle bus .. It was my
first time @ Marina Barrage and so I was like ' wahhhh' ..

We sat at under shade with mats on the ground but it was
not enough as the heat from the sun heated the whole
ground until I can literally feel the heat penerating through
my pants and on my ass until it is like 'slow grill' ass !

Played Monopoly DEAL , It was damn fun and the losers has
to do forefit but Darren was a sore loser lah as he is too
paisia to do so he just anyhow do them ! It was damn funny!
We screamed ,we danced and we even smell our own legs !
HAHA ! Lots of happiness and memories flowed back while playing !

Then after that Rain started to drop and we had to leave ..

So Darren, Gary,Kok Kiang ,Regina, PW, Brenda, Munyee & I
head towards Chinatown for Chicken Rice ! & Darren's House
for Mahjong Session & Monopoly DEAL session !

Wohoo ! just love this session as it always invovle lots of laugther
and fun ! and the whole house is packed .. Darren & I agreed that
we enjoyed this kind of feeling like everyone is gathered together
to have fun and we hope that it can happen more often ..

Thats about all today ! Really had to thanked Suen for orgainising
such class outings as it really brings back many past memories !

I really do treasured & missed you but you upset me
once after another .. The times we spent together can
nver be replaced by anything on this universe .. Please
let all this moments come back before it too late for
me to experince them =x

5A Class Outing day !

2010-04-24T23:13:00.001+08:00

Any Swimming Tutor to intro ?

2010-04-22T18:42:00.002+08:00

I am currently Looking for Swimming Tutor
as in am a swimming intermediate in swimming and
hope to be able to swim better ! individual lesson !

Some info about me ,

Age 18 , Male .

Kindly email me your rates at R3dstar92@hotmail.com

I am exhuasted !

2010-04-22T17:29:00.003+08:00

Finally got some spare time to blog abit !
I guess I will reduce on my time spent to blog as
I am really really tied up with school work ..

As you all know school had just started but the work
and stuffs are coming as 8 weeks from now is our CA1
so I need to chiong chiong CHIONG towards distinctions
or at least merits for my first CA1 .. And some of this
topic like math which I am a total noob in it unlike darren
or gary =x and there is plenty loads of infos to rmb for
my other modules ..

I have actually to plan to go back to my 'O' levels way of
studying which is to visit the Quiet Library study lougue
to revise for the whole week stuffs during my weekends
as I think nothing comes easy or free so effort is what I
need to put in in order to excel ! Many might think '
whats the point of you so chiong ? it is just the start of
school ! " To me , I rather start early and chiong rather
then I panic and regret this or regret that which I had
expreinced after my 'O' level !

You might think i am greedy but who doesn;t want the
best for themself if they have a good chance ?

So I hope those in the Clique who really hope to study in
a serenity enviroment and hope to hang out together during
the weekend can actually go with me to study at the library !

Okay thats about all !

2 more things !

I am TIRED ! and I need study hard !

Nothing comes easy in life !
Sitting down and saying will not help in any single way !

Happy 18th to Myself !

2010-04-19T21:34:00.003+08:00

I am offically 18 years old today !
so Happy 18th Birthday to AARONCHAN (Myself) !

Today is also the first day of my school , I was kinda
late so I cabbed down to school instead ! Wonder how
was it ? My Class Tutor / 'Form Teacher' is not a mr
'nice' guy i was expecting but instead a Strict and Frim
guy and he has several High Expectations from his
students ! & so he left a deep impression in me ! whether
good or bad i shall not mention as the internet has 'eyes'
watching =x

It rainned today ! and according to Dillon if on your Birthday
it rains it means that person is Stingy ! Seriously speaking ,
Am i that stingy cus it rainned like no tmr for the whole
afternoon !

Plus , while on the way home from Sim Lim today ! I witness
a Death due to car accident ! I was kinda shock or should i
say very shock ! In my 18 years of life I have never seen
a death occuring infront of me ! & That fellow I saw was
lying on the road with a cloth over his head and his bike
was somewhere 100 m away .. This has also proven that
motorbike is not the safest vehicle to travel on !

For at least now , I feel fortunate I am still alive here typing
my blog post ! Not been rude or anything here but I really
do appreacite my life even more now !

What a birthday 'present' god shown me ..

Johor with Mommy !

2010-04-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

Went with Mommy to Johor to pray respect to my
late grandma ! Had to wake up like 7 in the morning
and head towards Johor ! It is a torture to me =x

Head on back to SG ard 1 plus and meet Dillon at Yew Tee
as we are meeting the peeps to go buy shoes ! But in the
end ~shall not explain~ hurrss !

So we Shop , Lan & Dinner then Home ^.^

I am glad i get to meet almost everyone in the Clique once
for a simple meal or something before my Beloved 18th
Birthday ! Thanks alot , Peeps !

Okay I wanna buy a ALL IN ONE PRINTER so if any one
got any recommendations pls tell me ! thanks thanks in
advance =)

Off to bed as tmr is first day of school !
Excited + Scared !

No . 556 post !

2010-04-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

Dengyi & I went to the HP repair center again !
It is like the second time we went there in this month
and her lappy has been bought during the march IT fair
but now so problematic le ! Cannot stand it neither can
she ! And so I was very guai lan infront of the service
officer just now and dengyi was laughing all the way !

What I can say is that , What is Wrong HP brand ?
I still pefer ACER =z

After the so called 'repair' , we went to Vivo for Korean
Lunch and shopping while waiting for Kok Kiang to
finish swimming with his friend ! Bought many things
from Daiso to revamp my room into a better enviroment !

Meet Kok Kiang at Bugis at dunno what time =.= but all I
know is that we are late .. Sorry la kok !

We then head to Sim Lim to buy some disc and I just broswed
ard for my Digital Cam that I want to buy . Saw the Samsung
T550 which have a Front LCD for self portrait and that is
what attracted me ! Still considering as there is other cams I
am considering on ! so research time !

Then we ended the day at Chinatown Chicken rice where we
met a bunch of Stupid unmannered ah 'aqua' ! Dulan ! zzz ..

I bought many things today, whiteboard,stationaries , singlets,
socks,trays and boxes for neat arrangement of my desk !

Okay off to bed ! Tmr gg to Malaysia with mommy !

I kept asking myself 'WHY' ?
Cracks from the previous fall cannot be vanish as
scars will always be left behind..

My no . 550 post !

2010-04-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

I didn't post yesterday about my SP Flag Day event !

Yesterday

Ywans ! I was like why should i wake up sooo early for this
Flag Day (time 6:30am) thus i snooze my alarm from 6:30 all
the way to 7:15am and i dragged myself out from the bed !

Reached Tanjonr Pagar MRT ard 7.50AM but 30 percent of
the ppl were not there yet so i was more relieved as i not the
last to arrived !

Ard 8 am we start the flag day , Tabitha & I teamed tgt at a
junction of the pavement and start yelling , " Good Morning,
Will you like to donate to the President Charity " and ppl
start to flood in .. I recieved donations ranging from 10cents
to 10 Dollar !

In total I collected ard $100 & was the top collector in my
class =) indeed my hardwork of standing under the sun
and yelling pays off ! & I enjoy the time spent with my
classmates !

Today

I was looking forward for today as today my cliques is going
to have a simple celebrations for my birthday . At first was
suppose to meet at Darren's Place de but he was badly ill ,
(darren take care ! ) so we changed the venue to Kok Kiang
Place.

So i meet Suen & Dengyi at Bugis at 11.30 am but I was late
again ! sorry suen ! So we walked ard bugis and I bought
a New Watch and some school stuffs .

At ard 12.30 , the both of them pei me to SP to collect my
uniform and we meet munyee at SP. after collection we
went to SP canteen and eat ! mmm.. everyone says the
SP food not bad ... then we cabbed down to Kok kiang
house to play mahjong and slacking .. Then dinner at one
of the zi char at Redhill ! Cheap and Delicious ! I really loved it !

okay credits now ,

Thank you everyone including those who are not free to be here
today for the Presents ,Celebration and Dinner !
i really appreacited it ! & thank you suen for all the efforts , i am
really touched !

I received a total of 7 presents including the one i bought for myself =)

I am really happy ! serious !

Thank you ppl , all your birthday will not be forgetten !

For Pictures , Refer to my Facebook http://www.facebook.com/#!/fadedloves?ref=profile

Outing to buy Suen's DSLR

2010-04-13T20:35:00.003+08:00

Went to Ang Moh Kio with Suen , Dengyi & Kok Kiang
to buy Suen's DSLR as we were recommended that it
is much more cheaper there .. So we meet at City Hall
at 1pm & as usual I was late so as the rest except Suen !
psps ah ! .. train-ed there and had lunch before doing
our hunting !

In the end , Suen bought a Sony 230 at $599 which was
$100 cheaper then outside price ^^ .. I so envy her now
as she have a DSLR ! LOL =x ..

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We also took Neo print today ! Wohoo !! it has been very
long since we took neo print together !.. Enjoyed it !..

Next stop,

Ntuc Fairprice Xtra ! Went to buy drinks but in the end
the quene tooooo long so I bought from other place instead..
we also fooled ard by testing out the various Shades !.. so
Paisia lah .. Camwhore abit too =x

After that we went to take train ride .. From AMK to bishan
the Circle line from Marymount to Bartley and back to
Bishan again ! LAME right ! haha XD ..

I also bought a Photo Album today.. to put all my precious photos
inside and kept for my memories ! ..

Had a absolutely fabulous & enjoyable day !
Hope there will be more of this such outings ..

OUR next place of interest to visit is ,

SINGAPORE ZOO ! But dunno when ..Hope it is soon !
as school is starting soon and everyone will be busy with
studies and new friends ..

Orientation Day at Singapore Poly !

2010-04-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

Orientation Day at Singapore Poly today !
Was quite awkward at first but as the day goes on
I find myself more comfortable in the enviroment that
I am going to be in .. I also made many new friends
through this orientation programme .. & thank god
I am in the same class with someone I knew since
1 month or so ago ..

If you wonder what course am i taking ?

It is Diploma In Nautical Studies .

Some may ask , " Huh ? Study what in the course ? "

1) Simplified method of saying is , " This course trains us
to be Ship Captain onboard a vessel " ..

2 ) Sophisticated way of saying , " In the course we learn how
to control and navgiate a vessel to the location it is suppose
to go ".

So in this course I get to travel around the world with the
vessel I am allocated to .. but like one of the lecturer said
'when you gain some often you also lose some' ..

Gain ?

Experiences which many people will not be able to get .
Travelling for free . ( i so cheap ! )
Money.

Lose ?

Freedom.
Time with Families & Friends .

I guess there is more but now I am looking at the bright side
of my life !

If there is any outing with my cliques i bet i will go because I
know the time i have remaining is not many ..

The world may change , feeling may fade,
relationship may soured, but the feelings i had
for my Cliques will never be gone in any situation !
Because they were the Best I Ever Had !

I know some of this times we used to had will slowly be gone
but I will always remember in my heart ! Huamn grow in many
stages of their lives . We are born to move on forward .
But I do hope when we are old and our hands are trembling and
all our teeths are gone we will still be friends playing mahjong !

There is a saying ,

" You will have friends through your whole entire life BUT you
will not have friends forever ! "

I pray and wish ever single day !

2010-04-11T20:31:00.002+08:00

Rating : 2 **

Watched a super L.A.M.E show today , Ju-On !
storyline is crappy but some scenes are quite shocking =x
We also had a super duper full lunch at Mahanatta ,
OMG the serving is ALOT ! cannot even finish it ..
how i hope Kok was there to help us clear ..

I also went to the Dentist today to do scaling .. and it was
SOOOOOO FUCKING pain and i bled like non stop &
numb after the process ! this is why i just hate dentist !
But bo bian T.T !

Okay gonna slp early as tommorrow is Orientation Day
for my Poly .. Gosh ! I am going to meet new people !
Gambatte ^.^

Happy 18th Birthday to ELVIN TAN =)

2010-04-10T21:49:00.003+08:00

First of all ,

Happy 18th Birthday to Elvin =)

Then ,

Went to BM Festivo yesterday , nothing much , just
played some stupid Haunted House which I was grabbed
very hard by Mr. Kok Kiang ! .. Not scary plus got attitude
problem .. After that then mahjong at Ren's house and dinner
at Tiong market .

Poor Kok Kiang , who had vomited at least 20 times yesterday ?
at that point of time i realise he has his weak times and times
he needed help too ! Poor boy ! Rest well and recover soon !

And ,

Tmr is Orientation Day ! I am like so worried and scared as i
am very used to the enviroment that i lived in now ! i am
afraid to know new people .. Omg , where is the sociable aaronchan
gone to ? Hope everythings goes well .

off to bed . outing with cliques to celebrate Elvin's birthday
later !

Thanks Kok for the 'first' ever present !
I am so happy !

~MUST WATCH~ Hilarious Video !

2010-04-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

The following video is very funny plus gross !
Laughing my ass out !

2010-04-09T02:03:00.002+08:00

School is starting soon ! I feel kinda scare to be expose
in a new enviroment ..

2010-04-08T22:20:00.004+08:00

Shop shop & shop is what my cliques & I have been done
for this whole week ! .. i at contributed another at least
10 items to my wardrobe .. & i also bought a new bag which
i am so happy about ..

After shopping today , we went to Geylang for Dinner & visited
suen house to see her doggy ! Suen house is spacious lah , i so
envy her & she get to keep dogs which i always wanted ! She got
a naughty golden retriever and a Shitzu .. Then we head over to
Lorong 9 for our Tian Ji Dinner ! mmm .. i missed it alot ! it just
brings back fond memories .

Bused home after dinner & proceed with DOTA ~.~ !

Okay another topic,

I feel kinda shit that i am going to pay $50 for transportation soon!
which in the past i only need to spend ard $27.50 for transportation.
I am not been cheap or what is just that .. i also dunno why ! Just
not used to it !

Bus and MRT fare

K suitez !

2010-04-06T11:46:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was an enjoyable day ! 10 of us (dillon,suen,elvin,darren,
gary,dengyi,xiaowei,kok kiang,munyee & i ) went to K Suitez for
K session !

The design/theme of this KTV is extraordinary it has modern
design of their rooms and each individual has it own design.. We chosen
the Bed style room whereby we can lie down and sing .. woohoo
shiok ! The time given was also quite long 2 to 7 pm and everyone
paid like about $19.35 ..

I will abide the divination the was accord to me .

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Thank you everyone !

2010-04-04T21:33:00.004+08:00

Wujing finally contact me ! Gosh ! i kinda miss her tons ..
I really wished the happy days we had before will all return
but I know it is quite hard as we have our own life & our own
dreams to fullfill .. But those days will always be kept in my
'Best of my life" section of my memory .. I really really missed
her alot !!!

I also wanna thanked my aunties for supporting me and having
confidence in my studies and the $760 ang bao they gave me
even though they are in Aust ! I would really work hard towards
my future of giving my parents a stable and comfortable life .
& Uncle Dennis too , who is willing to be one of my guarantor
for my scholarship! Thanks all ! I really appreacited it . I know
you guys read my blog too ! =)

Currently I am looking thru the internet to plan our 1st ever
Cliques Overseas adventure ! I just love planning and thinking!
Hope it will be a successful trip & I am looking forward to it !
Guys it is time to SAVE UP !

Off to research and slp early as tmr I have to report to Singapore
Poly for my com stuffs and follow by outing !

Joker&Crapper!
Friendship Never Ends !
.ps. Jing take good care and I hope to see you soon .

Everything has a price to pay

2010-03-29T22:19:00.002+08:00

I am in my last phase and I had met a very huge challenge
face.. i had proven myself to be worthwhile but obstacles
just came in ..

I will put my hands together the pray hard that I can find
that 2 person which will change my life ..

God help me !! i am drowning ..